Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Mode : SANTAI
Later
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Today, that is....
As I read casually, skipping a bit on the days and months and years…. I can’t help noticing how naïve of the way I write last time..well.. not to say that I am any good today…I still write rubbish and approach them in my own silly way but somehow I think I am doing a slight better now than before….and what’s important is, I can read and see how my life proceeds…..from my life in Kelantan, to Ipoh and to Sydney. I still stick to writing about my daily happenings… coz.. the reason for me to open a blog is actually to capture and store memories which I would have forgotten otherwise.
Back then, those who commented were Delinn (of course), Bat, Iza, ME, Aunty N, Puteri and few more. Well… since I’m coming from a business background, most of my friends are not so keen on hooking with the Internet for this kind of reasons. Me? Coz my ex back then was an IT geek and Delinn is in this field as well. That’s why I got influenced. So I can say, most of my readers here should be originally Delinn’s (haaa aku bagi kredit kat ko nih!!) although I should say that the list has expanded... Well.. that’s what online networking is all about, isn’t it?
So, today I decided to open my blog to public again… for some reason known to me…and also another rational reason is………. Hehehehe… I heart nekrock!! who have been trying to log in eversince she’s been invited to this blog and to no avail!! Hahahaha.. Haaa nek… ni dah kasi laluan kat nek nih… so everyday day for 30 days, kena singgah and tinggal jejak eks nek???? Tu diaaaa pressure dah aku tgk nek!! Hehe kidding! So, tu jer lah kot!
Monday, April 28, 2008
WARNING!!! Entry ni melebihi senapas pembacaan!! Sila setelkan keje lain dulu baru baca eks!! hehehehe
Over the last weekend, seperti yg disebut2…aku keluo seketika dari kepompong pembelajaran dan melihat dunia luar owh… terang yer sinaran matahari? Kekekekeke apa ke kekdahnya skema dan berpuitis amat bahasa aku! Hahaha…
Australian Anzac Day
Well… hari Jumaat baru ni Anzac Day, kind of hari pahlawan la utk Aussies ni…. siap ada perarakan lebih2 kurang camtu la.. aku pon tak terperasan… tetiba ter-glance kat tv dalam dok bersiap2 nak ke school tu baru terperasan kat tv ada perhimpunan and ucapan2 bagai…Then aku ke school… kat school hari2 cuti umum ni biasa la.. senyap soh la! Tapi somewhere in the mid of the day, Hazel datang.. so ada kawan la…
Postgrad Day
Saturday, ekoran daripada paksaan serta pujuk rayu siap dengan ugutan-ugutan paparazzi (kahkahkah!) telah berjaya membawa aku ke Centennial Park, Randwick utk program Postgrad Day seawal 9 pagi… tapi as mentioned earlier.. aku kata nak dok campur tolak 2 jam jer dgn tak bawak makanan… tapi rasa segan la pulak…. Sbb ni konsep potluck.. malu lak rasa kalau datang dgn tangan kosong… datang dgn perut kosong takpe kekekekeke…so, tang menu ni, dpd macaroni bakar, downgrade sket ke muffin, downgrade lagi ke bihun goreng.. sudahnyer……..sandwich sardine!! Hehehehe… tak kisah lah kannnn janji bawak jugakkkkk…..
Dengan tema merah, aku pon bersemangat tak hengat nyer dgn tshirt merah, jacket merah plus knapsack merah! Tu dia… dalam dok takmo, takmo pegi tu…. Bersemangat lak aku menyokong tema penganjur nih.. alaa skali skala…sampai sana… despite aku yg dah sekian lama tak bersosial baik di alam reality mahupon virtually (hehe ye ker?? Kekekek), aku rasa I’m back to my ol’ self when it comes to socializing in the reality. Basically, aku mingle around dgn tak hengat donianyer.. jumpa sana, jumpa sini.. berkenal2an sana, bertepuk-tamparan sini heheh dgn pompuan ajer la eks… yeap.. so I did…ramai betul muka2 baru.. elok gak aku gi program ni.. baru kenal.
Upacara dimulakan dgn makan… maka… disebabkan jarang aku tgk food yg pelbagai jenis… jadi aku blasah la makanan2 tu kan hehehe.. tp small portion eks…sbb aku lebih pada mingle around dpd isi temolok ni haaaa… bila balik .. and lapo balik.. dok terpkir.. awat la.. aku tak makan sekenyang kenyangnyer tadik.. terlepas gak aku dr makan rendang.. yg diwar-warkan sedap tak hengat tuh! Huhuuuu.. saje jer ko ekss cik pah…
Tang program sukaneka lak.. ish ish.. aku ni yg takde anak dok sokong anak2 org lain ngalahkan mak pak depa sendiri.. .. layak jadi pom pom gurl lah aku ni hehehehe… neways… dalam aku dok kata takmo join sepatah habuk program sukan tu.. tp nama naik jugaaaaaa utk masuk group 2.. jadi.. rasa macam tak sedap lak nak ngelat atau ngelak.. maka.. aku join la jugak… dgn berkata di dalam hati…’setakat main satu game jer udahlaaa buat syarat’……Buat syarat ke haper! Aku main sampai sudah!! Ter bersemangat kumpulan lak aku bila dah main2 tu…. Sampai cik pah perli baekkk punyer lepas tu dalam YM….’ Eh… ko dok sana tadi baper lama ha?’… Aku jawab…’dok 5 jam!! Sambil gelak tak hengat2 nyer… dia lak kata…’ aku suruh ko tambah 1 jam jer.. … ko lupa diri sampai campur tolak jadik 5 jam’ kuang kuang kuang….tp best aaaaa.. loosen up and relax2 minda gitu kan….Habis program…. aku terus ke school… menelaah la sesikit…ada presentation nih hr selasa nih!!!!! Letih aku! So tu jer la utk hari sabtu….Oh ya group aku menang eks !
Ahad
Ahad lak… the guys tak jadi buat badminton finale.. sbb ramai yg takde.. ke Newcastle lah.. kesana dan kesini… so kensel… so..mulanya aku dah malas nak gi dah….. tapi.. rasa cam nak main badminton lak… tu dia… aku lupa daratan dah kan… bila dah start beraktiviti social ni… aku tau dahhhhh…sbb tu aku takmo mula ccececeece…anyway, so I did go and play…. Alaa.. main setakat gerak2kan muscle jer.. idak lak sampai berpeluh bagai… mula tu main sajer2…then… utk 2nd court tu… depa ajak lak main regu campuran (cececece bunyi cam baguss jer kekeke)…so, aku partner dgn Farid, Zurin dgn Abg Lan… and of kos la yg main dgn aku kalah kan hehehee… aku reti main.. amik/pukul bola… tapi bab nak lawan.. sbb nak jatuhkan bola di pihak lawan.. aku tak reti.. apatah lagi nak smash bagai!.. tp.. rest assured, suara aku lah sahaja yg bergema dalam court tu hahahahaha… ampesssss ok!! Siap leh pesan tu pada Abg Lan… jgn smash occay!!! Kehkehkeh….and aku pon perasan dia bagi bola cantekkkkk ajer kat aku hahaha! Kesian sangat kot dia kat aku hahahahahah
Habis main badminton.. dok borak2 dgn Zurin and Yanie sat…. and then gerak pulak nak ke school… tengok2 Zurin ajak jenguk ke book fair yg tgh on kat Roundhouse (dalam univ gaks)… so aku yg mmg pantang dengo book fair nih.. singgah la…. Erm.. apa nak dikata…. Dah hari ni last day… dengan promotion bagai sbb depa nak habihkan buku2 tu… aku hangkut 2 kotak buku occay!! 2 kotak tuuu!! Tah zaman bila lak aku nak baca kekekeke……Well.. it’s an offer I can’t resist… penuh satu kotak (dalam size A4 yg ada 8 rimm tu lbh kurang), hanya bayo aud10 for books… and aud5 for magazines… mana tak aku hangkut…… of kos buku lama2… ada yg lama zaman tok kaduk.. ada yg not that lama.. like tahun 2004 ke gitu.. as for magazines.. ada aku jumpa 2007 nyer edition.. aku ada jumpa buku2 yg mungkin (mungkin lagi tuh!! tp rembat gak!) aku pakai utk research plus buku yg aku mungkin akan pakai lepas aku grad nanti… and also tak ketinggalan buku2 citer la yg aku hangkut…total one box tu = 10 dollars jer…. Then.. aku naik tingkat atas…ada magazines for women.. aku kalau kat mesia and bukan zaman belajar.. mmg aku addicted to buying women’s magazines.. magazine omputeh eks…. Tp.. sejak kat sini yg dah almost 9 months ni.. idak ler aku membelinyer…so aku beli la backdated editions of women’s weekly, food and taste for only 5 dollars a box….
Habih2 tu, aku ke school…
Good news is… ina kata atan dah beli pc.. I like! I like!! Tak sabo aku nak ber-email and chatting bagai dgn farhana and dik an huhuuuu.. siap baru create YM id lagi tadi kat kakak…’anaija’ hhehehehe….
Erm.. panjang labor dah eks.. entry aku kali ni…. kali ni aku rasa sah dah.. mana2 yg berkenaan tu akan skip nyer baca entry nih hahahahahahaha.. sabo jer la kome! Huh! 1103 patah perkataan tu!! Apesal la bila aku nak buat write up utk tugasan aku punyerrrr le seksa???
Friday, April 25, 2008
Some conversation..
Ija (24/04/2008 5:27:30 PM): i might go.. tp mungkin sekadar jenguk muka kot
Thursday, April 24, 2008
After the meeting...
Takde idea tapi 6 para gaks kekdahnya....
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
An sms this morning
..and she's gone, 8.30am flight to Singapore
..sob sob..
later.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Bored...
Monday, April 21, 2008
Plans
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Beautiful news on Sunday morning!!
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Chilling out
Friday, April 18, 2008
Best and best-est buddies
Thursday, April 17, 2008
THIS close!
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Parcel from Malaysia
So here goes,
So.... thanks so much ekss??? jasamu dikenang hehehehehe.. caramel latte yg aku pos tu dah sampai ke belom weiiii?????
This morning..I
..am sick!...emotionally..
...am missing heaps of people..including people u guys wont believe I would....(including Scofield hahahaha!)
..feel like I am almost falling down....
This is the point that I think I am at the bottom of the world.... well....u know...occassionally we do come to this point... the world is round, is it not? Let's just hope, I wont be too long down here..
Later
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Penangan Jack
Doakan!....(utk kelas aku nih laaaa!)
Monday, April 14, 2008
Kun Ying <-- mrasalah minah Thailand dapat special entry hahaha
Harini Kun Ying akan submit thesis dia.. I am so happy for her.. she's among the 'old' ones (her batch) kat school ni yg masih mengerjakan thesis dia.. on and off, on and off.. kejap2 ada sini, kejap2 balik Thailand.. sbb utama - money constraint sbb dia self sponsored.. Talking about her, ramai yg kata dia ni pelik... so mula2 mai sini hr tu masuk ke room ni together with her (room ni ada 6 org resident).. dia buat hal sendiri2 jer... tp mandangkan aku jer seolah2 penduduk tetap bilik ni.. together dgn dia yg dok ngerjakan thesis dia.. maka... sembang2 la jugak... setakat laung melaung dr cubicle masing2....just this and that...aku careful gak nak nyembang on the fon dalam bahasa melayu sbb dia ni paham sesikit.. dia kata dia paham words utk food jer (dasar sgt! atas meja dia penuh stok makanan ok! hahaha) tp.. gut feeling tells me she knows more than that.. so nak cakap2 pasal penduduk bilik ni pon hati-hati la kekdahnya jugak...
Tp.. as day passes by (cewah cewah) dia rajin sembang ngan aku as compared to others...end up.. slalu ajak aku gi dinner to which kesemuanya aku turn down.. hik hik.. due to my constraint on the halal vs non-halal food.. walaupon dia kata dia paham tp kang.. terpaksa lak dia control nafsu (nafsu tuh!) makan dia sbb aku kan hahaha....lg pon.. aku suka Thai food.. the tomyam and all ..dia lak kata dia org Thai tp tak gemor.. camno tuh? pulak tu dia sokmo dok cakap dia suka and slalu makan roast duck...apa kes?? ngeri aku!....bila aku membebel pasal ketensionan aku pasal assignment... kelas.... ketidakpahaman aku.... yer lah... laki aku tak berapa paham tang ni.. hahahaha.. maybe coz he has faith in me.. sbb sokmo kata... aku boleh buat and he believe in me huhuuuuu padahal aku tau diriku... wahaha...oppssss
Back to KunYing.. bila aku tension2 ... lepas2 tension/stress.. aku akan jerit2 dalam bilik nih (idak ler jerit2 kuat, ok ishh kome nih).. dia akan bagi kata2 yg meng-ok kan aku... i would categorize as 'meng-ok kan' laaa sbb dia nyer advice tu ngarutsss most of the time... such as...' go back ijaaaa...'.... 'go shopping.....'. or.. something like this most of the times.. 'u know ija.. there's sale today here and there...bla bla bla..' hahahah aku kan nak jadik minimalist kat sini huhuuuu.. tp... boleh laa buat gelak ketawa gak dgn minah nih... Cam baru2 ni ada building evacuation test or something like that.. aku cepat2 amik beg aku nak kuor (walaupon training tp aku DQ gak ok! kekeke) panggil minah tu turun.. dia kata kat aku.. turun dulu.. dia nak save keje dia..then jumpa kata bawah.. dia leh kata kat aku... "luckily I didnt get burned just now.. my PhD is more important than my life.. if I survive but not my PhD thesis, I'LL get burned after that" whahaha tu diaaa PhD lagi penting dr life kekdahnya minah nih...Anyway...
Aku kadang2 annoyed gak dgn dia... 1) Sokmonyer bila balik or keluo memana, dia suka tak kunci bilik ni... hangin gak aku.. yerlah.. walaupon takde rete benda sgt kan sini.. tp kurang2 nya ada webcam and headphone aku tau!! hahaha...tak kosser aku membeli nak lain ok!...pastu.. ada gak sebakul buah2an hahaha... ehh camera pon aku tinggai sini tau...lagi apa eks...isk.. bila aku renung keliling cubicle aku nih.. mmg takde rete benda berharga pon hahaha.. well.. kalau bukan brg aku pon.. brg org lain kat meja depa2 la kan....hilang kang...sampai satu hari aku tampal notis depan pintu bilik ni..."Please LOCK the door if u're the last person leaving this room".... dua tiga hari lepas tu.... aku tgk mmg berkunci tiap kali aku org pertama nak masuk bilik nih... yer hadekk hadekkkk aku mmg lah sokmonyer org pertama masuk bilik ni.... naik lif kena swipe student card.. sbb only after 8am plus gitu lif jalan..then... tukang tarik blind atas bla bla bla...back tu Kun Ying... lepas seminggu tu back to normal.. tak berkunci balik.... hampeh ok! aku wat tak tau jer lah.. malas nak layan...
Annoyed yg kedua dgn dia nih.. kalau kita berdua dalam bilik nih... buat keje memasing.. kejap2 aku dengo dia giggle.. kejap2 giggle.. mula2 aku terkejut.. hah sudahlah depa ni kata dia ni wierd.. roper2nya slalu giggle sorang2.. kekdahnya chat bagai nak rak kau! walaupon tgh tahap gaban nyiapkan thesis hahaha... giggle tu tak kisah lah kan kalau sekali, dua kali or tiga kali.. tp kalau dah sepuloh, dua puloh kali dlam masa 3, 4 jam.. tak hangin ko dengo? yg masa tu aku tgh sibuk nak wat karangan aku nih??...hrm.. tp sudahnya.. lantak pi hang la..
Kekdahnya... of lately nih, aku lak nak giggle or tergelak tak tentu pasal bila baca komen2 org dalam blog depa, or entry2 depa or chat2 depa.. ha tu laa kan.. ngata lg Kun Ying dalam hati dulu hahaha...
Dan kekdahnya jugak.... KunYing ni byk gak nolong aku lately ni...huhuuuuu.... aku kan ada assignment data analisis bagai.. and dia kan dah stage finishing up writing thesis.. of course la member mahir amatz bab2 analisis.....one day.. Johra tanya aku...camana nak wat ada satu assignment on data analisis ni.. aku kata aku lom tgk lagi pon.. tp from ingatan ala kadar aku dalam kelas hr tu.. aku citer la sikit2 kat dia.... roper2nya si KunYing ni dengo... kekdahnya.. dia mintak data tu kat aku.. and tolong aku analize and siap tulih kan sikit findings/interpretation utk aku, boleh??? Aku? alhamdulillah la byk2 kekekeke.....
Recently, weekends ni bilik ni aku and dia jer la....smlm dia cakap kat aku yg buat aku tersentuh perasaan... dia as usual melaung dr cubicle dia...katanya, "Ija... tomorrow I am gonna submit my thesis and soon I'll go to Singapore before going back to Thailand...we must take photo together hor?" Terdiam aku sat di cubicle aku nih.. then aku kata..'of course we must!' and then KunYing kata... 'nevermind.. after this we have facebook to be kept updated of one another..'
hrm....dia tak sampai lg nih...itu jer lah nak citer... ermm... mula2 dulu aku tak berkenan sgt dgn dia nih...mungkin influenced by others who said dia ni wierd..... tp...erm....tu lah kan... dont judge a book by its cover... baca gak asbtract/sinopsis buku tu dulu... hiks! (hint : buzzing Yatz!)...moral of the story, hee hee.. u dont know who u might turn to one day.. sometimes could be org yg ko paling tak sangka skali yg nolong ko eks huhuuuuu...
huhuuuu.. Congrats KunYing!!
Addendum :
1. Ada few typos, tp aku malas nak betulkan.. pandai2 la memahamkan..
2. Aku halalkan sesapa yg nak skip dr menghabiskan baca.. *lariiiiiiii*
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Weekend rambling..
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Nothing interesting..
Question 1
Consider the concept of generalized exchange as discussed by Carman (1980) and Cadeaux (2000). How might this concept be useful for defining the boundaries and scope of marketing? Is the concept of generalized exchange consistent with a systems theory approach to macro-marketing such as that discussed by Meade and Nason (1991)? Why or why not?
Question 2
Compare the approach to externalities that Meade and Nason (1991) take with the approach Cadeaux (2000) takes. What are their general similarities and differences? Specifically, to what degree do the approaches take heterogeneity and assortments into account?
Question 3
How might one go about developing an empirical design to test the model of external benefits of consumption presented by Cadeaux (2000)?
** Mrasalah ilmiah sgt entry hr ni hahaha**
Friday, April 11, 2008
It's Friday already peeps!
Anyway, in the end mom agrees and finally with her consent.. here I am standing up to what I believed to be my destiny for my doctorate study since the very beginning... And.. now... with such difficulty.. I would say difficulty because.. I am in difficulty here.. not in my life-style Alhamdulillah....but.. in my studies..I ermmm ( this is the zillionnthhh of time I complained, I know yadda yadda yadda.. just bear with me..in 3.5 yrs time if I can still keep this blog.. it would be interesting to look back and reminiscing)... I ermmm.... ok to make it simple.. I feel incompetent relative to my other colleagues...but... I am still holding on to the saying.. "ada hikmah di atas segalanya..." that to date, haiyyohh study wise belum nampak huhuuuu... but lifestyle wise.. yeap.. bit by bit I can see what it meant to show/tell me...what I can say is... this environment teach me to appreciate things a whole lot more than I usually had
Yesterday, I attended a doctoral seminar in the afternoon.. it was basically a proposal defense by Zhi Rong who is doing something on product assortments and she is focusing on tourism.. how ppl decide their tourism assortment. I admire her.... I have so many times wished her luck prior to yesterday coz I know I'd be such a freak when I'm about to embark in such an important event of a PhD student's life...but.. yesterday.. she did good. She did very well. I observed how she did her presentation and although she kind of stumbled with her words here and there nevertheless she is one confident student! There were lots of questions posed... heaps of them! but she managed just fine..looked like she really really know what she's doing.. well.. of course at that point we should have, shouldnt we? That's obvious otherwise we wont be standing there..Ermm.. maybe because I still have vague picture of what I intend to do in my research.. Arghh...I just dont want to go beyond 4 yrs. That will be crazy!
I received good news from friends in NZ and Perth who came a month or 2 months later than me.. but already successfully defended their proposal last week.. Alhamdulillah... happy for them but makes me cringe inside when I look at my situation... Well.. one might say that they dont have classes (yes, true) therefore they are able...I dont know.. I always pray and hope that God give me hidayah in doing my work and hoping for miracle so that...when I do it the first time ( I mean the ideas, the work and all), it will be the right one so that my path is a straight one instead of crooked hehehe.. so that I wont waste my time hehehe...
Okay.. enough with my ramble on this... there will be other times of something like this believe me..so much with my emotions....
Can u believe that I only managed to finish only 1 Jack's article yesterday???? Such a loser huhuuuu sian diri aku nihhh asyik kene kutuk hahaha...no.. I mean.. such a kura-kura hahaha...yes.. I started the reading at 8+ am with large latte on my side (yg dalam minggu ni aku dah tak bancuh sendiri air neskepe dah..beli jer.. huhuu) and... when it was about to go back at 8pm yesterday.., I was still holding that same paper keh keh keh.. tak patut betullll.. tp....yeah.. I had to attend the seminar at 3.30pm yesterday anyway...alasan.. alasan..hiks!
But.. surprisingly this time... I think I understand the whole picture or idea of that paper in that one time reading, how's that?? huhuuuu... I mean.. boleh laaa nak draf2 or letak2 gambaran of how my answers would be... what my approach would be in answering the question.. in which aspect I would start tackling the question ..something like that.. cuma belum write up lagi.. tgh nak perabihkan whole 3 papers first then only write properly so that I get a clearer picture.
So, today am gonna (should) finish the other 2 papers and in the afternoon or tonite I should draft my answers in the paper already.. insyaallah.. see how. Then.. if everything goes to schedule.. tomorrow I'll look at Monday's article which to date havent received any yet.. tak suka betul depa ni bagi last last minit sbb I dislike to do last minute work.. makes me panic tak tentu pasal hisyyy.. and sunday there will be badminton game oh oh... yep, finally I confirmed with Zurin that i'Allah am coming with of course additional note .."cakap siang2 tak gheti main tau!" huhuuuu.. after the game, I shall be working on my SPSS assignment.. see how..
Ohh.. yesterday masa otak tgh kelabu asap with the reading, I dropped by at Joe's chatbox..which I seldom do... hrm... little did I know that it is fun chatting in the 'online crowd' hahahahaha...aku kan anti social sket hahaha dream on!
Oklah.. tu jer
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Farhana and dik an...
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Yeay!
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Final one for today
The essay is here.
Okeh berjuang utk esok lak. Untuk esok ni aku nak review jer.. abess dah methodologi.. apa aku nak kritik kan?
Penat
Monday, April 7, 2008
Kisahnya...
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Daylight saving ends today
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Random part 2 (copy & paste from my other blog)
Met my supervisor formally yesterday though I should say, we didnt discuss that much in formality. Actually, I bumped into him the day before yesterday.. he asked me of how my being and studies and progress and all.. so.. casually I told him (I was filling the jar with cold water at the time) that i intend to see him either tomorrow (that's yesterday) or the next day (that's today). I also told him that I wanted to streamline my research progress seeing that I did not progress that much to date and that worries me a whole lot. But.. he explained bits and pieces while standing in the kitchen pantry and also while walking towards his office, he invited me in and so we continue talking a bit in general.
Well.. I have decided to not discuss my research that casual. And, to my surprise and dissappointment.. when I asked about his view on the proposed area that I submitted him last time (last yr remember I submitted 1 whole chapter before going back to
So, after seeing him that day, I was down, really depress and sad thinking that.. my God! I have spent nearly 8 months on that area and suddenly only now he said, that is not much of a fruitful area..so.. really in no mood.. (that explains the mundane environment which is reflected in my writing in this blog these days. So.. I went through my assignment for yesterday, it was SPSS result analysis and that took my mind and mood away from my current worry for a little while.
But once home, the sadness and dissappointment and emotional turndown come again....and I just go to sleep right away. Hubby had his maggi mee as dinner at my office while waiting for me finishing up my work.
Come morning (yesterday), I have decided.. no! I have to see him (my sv) again and clarfiy this and point up my views .. I'd better or else I will be in a dilemma and worried and lost. So yesterday I went to his room with a list of agenda I'd like to tackle and clarify with him. So I did and alhamdulillah I braved myself yesterday for... what's not clear or might be misunderstood by both parties (mostly me) are pretty much clarified.
1) I asked about my research progress whether I am behind schedule (which to me, yes I am.. coz already 8 months and everything seems to be still vague) but not to him. He said i am well intact with the schedule (really?) and to not to worry too much over it. He'd push me if he finds that I'm way behind schedule. Ok. First question answered.
2) I intend to defend my proposal by the end of this year and that leaves me with another 9 months to go.. do u think it is possible? By asking this, actually implicitly I am implying that i) I wanna see if he keeps track of my progress and ii) to tell him that I really wanna stick to this plan of study which i have submitted him in the beginning of my study. So, he said, okay.. by aug (1 yr) I should have my draft proposal completed and we'll work from there.. knowing that of course the proposal will go back and forth, back and forth for hundreds of time. Ok. I agree and will take this challenge. 2nd question answered/solved.
3) I voiced up that I dont agree with his suggestion to get the whole proposal completed first then only show him.. coz.. I dont want to be doing a model and literature review and methodology and spent months on it to be discarded after the first submission. That would waste my time. So i suggest to him that why not I submit to you chapter by chapter starting with the LR first? Then he said.... no....apparently what he meant was.. for me to get the whole LR part completed and submit to him instead of submitting topic by topic... hrm.. although some of my friends did this way which I think is useful (topic by topic) but well...I erm..take his suggestion coz well.. that maybe is his style.. so.. no harm.. I'll do as he suggested. 3rd problem clarified and solved.
4) I told him that yesterday (day before yesterday) he mentioned on the weak potential of my proposed topic/area in PhD research.. I showed him a list of all latent constructs that I have proposed to him last time and asked him... should i divert to another area or did u mean any particular construct that u're not happy with. Okay.. for this particular question.. he seems to be belit here and there like how an original bangla would do *LOL* keh keh keh... suddenly he said, not that he disagree or discourage with the idea/area but.. on the virtual community idea seems so virtual and vague and he cant really see the potential in it. And also he said that he browsed a while on this and found little literatures on this. Well... but he also added that if I think there is potential in this topic and can prove it to him, we might settle on this one.. so... in other words.. it's on me. Well.. although not that satisfied with his answer and the question is not fully answered.. erm... I guess i should stop at that first and see what I can prove to him in my writings..because I see so much potential in this online social networking thingy in marketing.
So... all in all, I am pretty satisfied with the meeting.. and feels that my mind is cleared and my confusion is somehow clarified.
So now I agree with the saying.. that communication with your supervisor (or anybody else) is of utmost important... but.. I always takut-takut one to talk to him.. not confident and low self esteem.
Oklah tu dulu.