So long Sydney...

~ This is it! I'll be going home for good today insyaallah...

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~ Alhamdulillah sumer urusan kat Sydney dah selesai.....tinggal one very last bit....bank account tokleh nak tutup lagik sbb by yesterday house bond tak dapat agik. Terpaksa aku hold account tu, then nanti TT duit ker acc mesia, then baru tutup kena tulis surat from mesia.

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~ Kat school laks, thesis yg aku hantar 27.01.11 telah straight away di hantar pada 3 external examiner dah. fuhhh that was really quick..maknanya takde masalah di peringkat graduate school lah tu kot...mmg aku boley check dan monitor online progress pergerakan thesis aku ni. Harap2 bulan May aku boley datang konvo pulak.

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~ I thank God for the opportunity to be in Sdyney, doing this most difficult level of study here...I think I had the time of my life here....it not only offered me education and knowledge but a whole lot more. I think both of us have made it here this 3.5 years. Challenges mmg tak terkata..come and go, up and down...but alhamdulillah kami survived. 

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~ The most important thing that i learned is....sememangnya nothing is impossible..that words are true in every sense of it. Cuma, in order for it to be true, we have to go thru each stages and problems that comes with it, explore the possible solutions...insyaallah mmg ada jalan penyelesaian. Jalan penyelesaian tu kadang2 bukan yg kita favor, mungkin yg nampak macam menyusahkan kita atau org lain disekeliling kita...tapi sebenarnya percayalah, tu lah dia jalan penyelesaian yg Tuhan bagi dan sememangnyer yang terbaik. Faith in God and ourselves are all we need. You have both, then insyaallah you will move forward.

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~ Betul a good friend of mine once said, doing this kind of study is like self-realization. That friend of mine had said this at the very very beginning of my study period...dan aku rasa mmg betui apa dia kata...i learned a lot about myself like never before. I learned what i'm capable of, what i really cannot do, how patience i am, how strong i am, how weak i am and all......i learned about how strong or weak a love and friendship is along the way too...and of course, i learned not only from within but  so much more from others in fact.....

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~ Aku look forward jugak for my new life in Malaysia...mmg sedih nak tinggalkan Sydney and Randwick especially...i love this place and i have always love the life i had here....but  we have to move on...after 3.5 years, prolly it's best to change to new environment..and see how things gonna be for me there...i presume, things should be at its best as well!! insyaallah..

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So long Sydney...love you and the memories you gave me...and Malaysia, here i come!!
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~ my 1000th entry
~ 29012011
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Done!!

I have submitted my PhD thesis today alhamdulillah...
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yeayyyyyy!!!

Umah dah takderrrrr....huhuuuu

Semalam secara rasminyer aku homeless kat sydney nih...uhuk uhukkk....i've let go the house and transit kat mesia hall yesterday morning. Alhamdulillah setakat ni procedure sumer ok.....umah tu clear dah...ada yg jual2 barang, ada yg let go jer bagi kat juniors. Auwwww sedih laaa masa let go tu....but because i've been emotional since i got the date to go off, so yesterday wasnt as hard as i thought it would be.....I think it was last week masa dok sengsorang kat umah yg telah mulai kosong tu....i stand quietly alone in each room...and visualized where things were...like, mana tpt meja study aku dulu...mana beskal aku letak dulu...mana single bed..mana my bed and so forth hehehehe yerrr..aku mmg camtu..hehehehe  neway, all are good so far alhamdulillah..
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Check in kat mesia hall very early yesterday sbb owner umah tu nak datang awal together with his contractor utk repair and reno sesikit kat umah tu....masuk mesia hall...dalam kol 3 baru siap depa get the room ready....anyway, lega gaks sbb kat sini ada computer room heheheh bayo 5 dollars per stay..guna la takat mana pon....haha yer lah..dah sebulan aku internet-less kat umah lama tu...sbb dah disconnected...mmg disconnect segala utilities awal2 agik senang citer...so bila nka guna tenet, gi school jer.
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Talking about school, that would be another place that i'm emo with...hehehe biasa ler...and also cubicle aku tu dah clear dah...habih kemas dah...tinggal telekung jer sepersalinan kat situ...then i'm all good. Minggu ni mungkin pegi jugak skali skala kot.....sajer...hehehe..
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Tu jer lah update tak seberapa aku kali ni...owhh yea...although i've made a promise to finish up citer travel NZ aku kat sini....i dont think i'll do that...soooo.....ni tgh bersedia mentally and physically utk start a new chapter pulak kat mesia....harap2 segalanya memberi sinar yg cerah pada kami.....thesis dah siap, dah bind alhamdulillah...tinggal tunggu masa nak submit jer....tunggu sv aku masuk opis from his holiday..katanya harini...if not today, maybe day after tomorrow kot...but i sure hope today....
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So, basically sumer dah ready ...cuma aku tgh risau  banget ngan loading luggage aku ni jer..harap2 lepas laaaa aminnnnnn.....

Checklist, checked but not quite!

~ Packing? checked
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~ Shipping? checked
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~ Utilities: api, gas, telefon? checked
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~ Flight ticket? checked
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~ Reserve a room at mesia hall? checked
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~ Household items? checked and in progress
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~ Farewell luncheons, do-s and all? in progress
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~ List of food to makan2 in mesia? checked
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~ List of places to go once back in mesia? checked
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~ Apa lagi eks?
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~ hrmm....ahh thesis? belummmmmmmmm!!!!

Brief update

~ had almost countless of things to settle with..these more or less pull me down at times but insyaallah slowly & gradually getting there..
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~ had so many things to update of my lifeabout, but either couldnt find the semangat or the time or the facility to do so..
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~ i didnt realize how low my self-esteem had been till i quietly noticed of the umpteenth time i had to be given motivational and encouragement words to get me going to the finishing line..
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~ as time ticking and me slowly approaching the finishing line, i get emo lots more these days..every corner of the house and school and even the road and everything brought back memories of rise and fall....as the saying goes,"i always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh, but I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry."
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~ neways, i believe everything should be and will be okay..

New Year, 2011

Happy New Year !!!

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This time around aku takder new year resolution yg specific like always...bukanlah sebab takder apa yg nak dicapaikan..i think all of us have more things to achieve as we go into the new year.

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The year that was of 2010 has been a wonderful and blessed year indeed , with much has been achieved alhamdulillah....perhaps i could also say that it was a year of travel too. In that year alone...Malaysia, Tasmania, USA and New Zealand and yeap u bet! a year of kopakness certainly!! hahaha but insyaallah rezeki akan datang lagi...Other than that, study issues...been concentrating on my thesis writing and such...and just a bit more to go insyaallah...

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The year that's gonna be of 2011, will be a turning point in my life...new challenges, new environment, new faces will be around me...hope i'm all up for those..yet although newness will surround me, memories of tears joy and laughter will always remain...

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May success be ours!!