Soalan dan jawapan yang tidak ingin didengar

Soalan    : Yang, mlm ni yang nak makan apa?

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Jawapan :  Tak tau nak makan apa..

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I lose my appetite as soon as I enter my second trimester. I dont have neither morning sickness nor nausea nothing so far, alhamdulillah....It's just that i have no appetite, dont know what to eat. So the issue of what to eat for dinner everyday is our domestic problem. A thought came across me yesterday that, "kalau lah masa tak pregnant dulu takdak appetite camni, sure selim melim voque laaaaaa badan aku!" hehehe

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Sigh..

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Wonderful weekend

Weekend Awal Muharram baru2 ni was a splendid one for me! Tak pegi mana pon....plan asalnyer nak ke Kelantan...tp sbb banjir and hujan kat sana, terpaksa pospon....Ingatkan nak la makan macam2...beli kopok lekor and all....and also jenjalan pasar khadijah and rantau panjang...tp hrmm...kita hanya mampu merancang...Tuhan juga yang menentukan segalanya.....Maka meks redha tak dapat gi...

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Jadi dok umah jer...kemas2 umah, relax se relax nyer...syokkkkk betul...syok sbb spend quality time with my husband. Hari sabtu tu kuar jugak gi shopping mall, dia ada nak cari kasut kerja dia...aku pon shopping seluar maternity...maklum laaa seluar jeans sumer ketat2 dah. In fact, cuti kemarin dah susun jauh2 ke dalam dah jeans2 tu means tak pakai la kot buat masa ni.

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Ahad tu pulak...lepak2 jer kat umah...golek2 lama sikit kat katil...bliss! then buat bihun sup ayam...lama betui tak buat bihun sup ayam...ingat dalam kol 3 gitu nak kuar...tp penat la pulakk..so kensel..so dok lepak jer kat umah rehat2....

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Isnin tu kuar kejap gi ipoh parade amran shopping2 then ke greentown mall aku cari jubah2 utk pakai dah. Aku nyer baju kurung kain dia dah ketat2 jugak some....and aku tak rasa at this stage aku nak beli lagi baju maternity byk2 sbb nanti lepas bersalin tokley pakai......nanti kot2 la 8 bulan or 9 bulan perot besar betui baru nak beli baju maternity sesikit....other than that, aku nak beli stylo nicey long dress jer yg boleh dipakai ke kejer and function and lepas bersalin nanti boley pakai lagi.

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Harini??? kejer lorrrrrr. Anyhow, i had wonderful weekend la spending time with husband. Lama jugak kitaorg tak cuddle2 up together masa siang2 weken sbb asik adaaaa jer hal....ke sana sini kenduri and so forth. Bliss la previous weekend...

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Selamat Tahun Baru Hijrah 1433

Harini hari terakhir tahun ni....esok bermula lah tahun baru dalam kalendar islam...

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Hidup aku jugak berubah banyak dalam setahun ni....the ups and downs and the challenges...all of which i believe are to make me to be a better person.

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Apa2 pon, aku bersyukur atas segala kurniaanNya selama ini....ada hikmah dan aku redha atas segalanya. Semoga dosa2 aku pada tahun ini dan sebelumnyer diampunkan Tuhan dan semoga aku diberi cahaya hidayahNya untuk berada di jalan yang benar pada tahun baru ini..
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Semoga aku berjaya berhijrah kepada kehidupan yang lebih baik dan diberkati Allah....dan dapat menjadi muslim yang lebih baik dari tahun2 lepas....

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May the new year promises better luck, fruitful opportunity and bright future for me and my family...

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Selamat Tahun Baru Hijrah! Let's start a new and blessed life!!
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Kesabaran

Aku realize yang sebenarnya....aku sedang diuji tingkat kesabaran aku dari hari ke hari. Aku tak sedar sebenarnya....tapi well of course ada hal itu hal ini perasaan itu perasaan ini....so one time i stay still and think and think and ponder and evaluate and reevaluate and muhasabah and muhasabah and bla bla bla. Makin lama makin aku sedar yang sebenarnya aku sedang diuji kesabaran. Aku sedang di train untuk sabar. Sabar dari segi apa? Biarlah aku jer yg tau sabar dari segi apa. All these while i thought aku ni lebey kurang sabar la jugak orangnyer...but no...this is different kind of sabar.....this test is different this time....the more i think about it, the more i realize God is testing my patience and wanting me to have more patience.

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Jadi, di hari Jumaat yang mulia ini dan sempena kedatangan Maal Hijrah pada hari ahad ni....aku doa sunggoh2 pada Tuhan moga aku ditingkatkan kesabaran aku dalam hal2 yg aku diuji..amin..

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Lovely..

5 months into pregnancy

Yeah....alhamdulillah this week i am into my 5 months pregnancy....alhamdulillah nampak gayanya everything's alright so far. The glucose test the other week was a minor distraction nevertheless, the follow up BSP (blood sugar profile) test that i took was read as moderate or not too bad, as quoted by the dietician.

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I actually have no objection on following all procedures for pregnant woman that i'm supposed to endure. It's the time constraint on my part that bothers me. Luckily my nature of work allows me the flexibility to visit the clinic and they so far accomodate to my schedule as well. Oh yeah the 4 kali cucuk jari that i did last week (i.e BSP) 's result came out as : 4.8, 5.6, 5.2, 6.7. I somehow believe that i know why the last result was not that 'beautiful'. hehehehe for one, the duration the test was conducted was less than 2 hours and two, i took dinner at 6pm and didnt do any chores or work or something to convert those food into energy.

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So.....so far 5 months okay la takat ni..it's just masa 2 months pregnant kot i was quite emotional....asik nak terasa hati dan merajuk jer ngan amran....i feel like he's paying more attention to his work than his pregnant wife (who's pregnant for his first baby!). Balik lambat la...tak beli dinner lagi laa...tak care sgt pasal apa aku makan la..this and that....tp slalunyer balik lambat laaa....customer nyer hal bla bla bla. Until one day, aku nangis! hehehehe nangis sbb tak tahan sgt...so i cry and blurted out and yeah amran tak sukerrrr sangat tgk aku nangis...mula la dia gabra sgt hehehehe bukan sengaja tp perasaan nak menangis nak wat camner kan..hehehe so he apologized and from that day onwards, he kept his words to not allowing work to come first than this manja-terlebey-pregnant-wife theeheehee. Aku pulak, masa pregnant  ni manjaaaaaaaaaaaaaa la sangatttttt hahahahaha memang la sblm ni pon manja...tp dah preggie ni laaaagiiiiii manja hahahaha ketentuan Tuhan kan?? bukan dibuat2 kan? redha jerrr laaa hehehe

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So, alhamdulillah yg lain2 sumer ok.....kejer??? usah citer! Melambak dan so much in a plate at one time that i can take! sighhh..

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Oklah stop sini dulu.

Cantik

Cantik pulak aku tengok template baru ni....cam shweetttt jer hehehe.
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Neway, nurse dari klinik kesihatan call pepagi tadi after 3 calls that i missed and didnt bother to return call hahaha. Turned out, its the nurse at nearby clinic where i do my government pregnancy check up. I do both gov and private check up, for thorough and precaution. Aaanyway, my blood sugar test came out overboard by 0.1 and she asked me to come again for whateversugartest. hrmm...bagus yer misi2 zaman skarang, strict and discipline, ikut procedure. Hopefully ngan sumer patient laaa. Esok, kena cucuk jari amik darah...sebanyak empat kali ewwwww
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Tapi.....hrmm....aku rasa aku takde diabetes ler masa pregnant ni....
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Warming up entry

Banyak betui menda nak buat eeee! Sampai taktau mana satu nak buat dulu. Instructions and things come one after another from one level up to the highest level. Giler ker haper?? So what i did now is just, push aside for the time being. Tak larat la nak pkir2 lagi. Just finished organizing an important event last 2 weeks and i feel i still need the rest and relax. Nanti lah, lepas2 ni pkir. At the same time, writing needs to be done jugak. I've been doing some thinking and aku rasa...tak boleyy la dok fokus pada KPI universiti jer....my own KPI pon kena gaks achieve..it's of utmost important in fact tapi tu yg aku dok ignore or sacrifice. sigh...

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Citer pasal lain lah.

My pregnancy is at 18 weeks now...alhamdulillah segalanya ok....aku sihat, baby pon sihat...syukur.....imagine....i travel everywhere a whole lot more when i'm pregnant than not. But alhamdulillah....masih diberi kekuatan dan kesihatan yang baik.....itu yg aku mintak sentiasa pada Tuhan....Baby is quite active jugak eks....at 10 weeks masa scan dia dah gerak2 tangan dia..and i thot that was quite fast and recent check up at Pantai pon dia dok gerak2 jugak...kepit and bukak peha dia....jantina dia pon dah nampak...i prefer not to disclose yet but suffice to say that my instincts since the very beginning insyaallah correct. Still, anything can happen...tengok masa dekat2 nanti. I dont want the jantina to be a surprise, coz i want to be practical therefore senang nak beli2 barang baby tu nanti bila dah tau jantina dia.

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As for mengidam2 ni, setakat ni takde la sangat...ada jugak masa2nya yg aku teringin nak makan itu ini....but when the things susah nak dapat or takder...aku takde la jadi macam nak sangat...jadi macam takde pon okay....aku rasa baby ni baik la....

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Alright will stop here for a start. Insyaallah will sambung lagi.

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Selamat hari raya aidil adha