Indahnya perasaan itu.....

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Perasaan apa?? jeng jeng jenggg hehehehehewww
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Perasaan bila mula2 dapat newborn baby.....hehehe entah camana nak describe perasaanya...atau maybe sbb aku lamaaaaa takdapat anak...and lepas dah merasa dapat baby irfan ni....i find that i like babies....aku suka perasaan bersama baby newborn tu....paling suka breastfeeding dia...i just love it. Aku rasa special jer sepanjang pregnant and sepanjang berpantang...agaknya orang bagi perhatian dan keutamaan jer kot?? hehehehe..
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Irfan dah grow up dah skang...sikit lagi nak masuk 9 bulan dah...dah besar, dah bertambah dapat akal...makin nakal..suka main2..suka senyum dan gelaks2....suka melasak bully mommy yg sentiasa nak kena kejor dia...gigi dah nak tumbuh yang ke-lapan batang! alhamdulillah takat ni tak gigit mommy..ada jugak few times tp aku jerit tiap kali hehehe sakit woooo....kadang2 aku jentik manja kat pipip dia....tp dalam sebulan setengah ni dia asik demam on and off buat aku risau...agaknya sbb gigi dia tumbuh cepat sangat ker...skang ni tengah meniti-niti kat meja, playpen dia,, cushion sofa nak berjalan.....merangkak mmg laju dah..tp masa dia berdiri tu..untuk duduk kalau takde support nearby dia tak berani lagi nak lepas tangan gitu jer and jatuhhh..elok la pon hehehe..dah lama aku tak bershopping utk irfan..baju2 dia as well as toys as well as buku dia ker apa..ntah napa aku stop...nantilah aku sambung balik...
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but still i think it's still too new for irfan nak dapat adik...hehehehe aku yg tak puas memanjakan irfan lagi kot heheheh altho i should think of my age nih kalau nak dapat baby lagi.....
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oklah..angin malas tetiba bertiupan...phewww....and zaassssss

Blessed

Apa la kena nya eks..semangat nak memblog..idea membuak masa driving, masa bosan..masa memasak and etc etc.,..tp lepas tulih tajuk kat blog jer..terus padam semangat.. apa sudah jadi??? hahaha ada jin ke haper kat blog aku nih??? hahaha
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And yes now im lazy and nantilah sambung eks..
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Time after time

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Having the time to do almost everything despite our daily buzy-ness is a type of rezeki also me think. Off late I find that mine is scarce. Pray to Allah that I am  given more blessings....
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Salam Maal Hijrah

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Salam Tahun Baru...
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Tutup buku lama, bukak buku baru...
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Semoga tahun baru bertambah baik untuk ku dan semua...
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Maaf zahir batin...
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Mode merindu

heheheheh.
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sajer jer...nak update tp malas tulih2..tp rasa nak update tp malas laks hahaha
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Cerita irfan yg kurang sihat

Shiannn dia...
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Mula2 selsema, batuk2...once balik lepas raya haji haritu..then berlarut2 batuk tu sampai bunyi dah teruk beno...dah cuti alternate ngan hubby jaga dia....then bawak spital to check Dr kata ada kahak byk dah..the sound of this breathing...so kena admitted. Sigh..terpaksa la kan.....dia merengek jer masa tu.....nak memerap jer....tp sib baik masa tido ok jer.....bawak toto apa, tido kat bawah. Ada bronchitis dan jugak pneumonia sikit. I think sbb cuaca yg tak elok plus musim2 skarang ni kan.
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Sian irfan kena neb..kena neb tu ok lagi sbb dia tak sakit cuma irfan takot jer la so dia nangis2 taknak...sian dia...dia tu jaraaaaaaang sangat nangis sepanjang hayat dia ni...jarang sangat real cry..tp utk neb tu mmg nangis sunggoh2....kalau buat masa dia tido then baru ok....lepas tu one day kena sedut kahak laks guna tube ikut kerongkong and hidung....yg tu mommy cry sama!! auwwww dont want to remember his high pitch cry masa buat procedure tu...
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Tapi tu la..bersyukur la yg ni sikit2 jer...byk kes2 besar yg lain lagi..kena sabar byk2...
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Today, dia dah recovering...tetiba naik ruam2 pulak seluruh badan. Demam dah tak demam dah....selera makan masih kurang...jenuh aku try itu try ini..tak baper nak mau....smlm buat oat + pear././ada rasa manis2 sikit maujugak makan sikit2....tadi buat labu + carrot + kentang..mau jugak makan dah..and also pisang lenyek..ok jgak babysitter kata makan sampai habis. Lahaii aku laks bekalkan setengah pisang tu jer coz i thot that as back up kalau yg main meal dia those puree campuran labu tu dia tak nak. Skali babysitter bagi pisang dulu..dah tentu dia takmau yg the other one tu. Sikittt la pulak pisang lenyek tu. Takpelah..mentara nak petang karang...
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So letak bedak2 sejuk and mandikan dia selalu la...hopefully cepat baiknya ruam2 tu. Actually esok dah nak kena gi Penang ada teambuilding. tapi aku mintak excuse sbb irfan naik ruam2 ni tak sesuai la pulak...
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Gitu la seadanya...esok dah apply cuti, senin pon dah apply cuti...so lama la aku dok ngan dia ni yeahaaaa. 

Cerita hari raya korban

Hari raya haji baru2 ni disambut biasa2 jer....to a point that on that raya eve...i was thinking...hrmm...apa yg aku nak berkorban yer this time..sempena raya ni..and a thot came across my mind like a breeze almost instantly..but brushed away.
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Anyway, hari raya tu kami beramai2 di ipoh...jumaat tu biasa2 jer with the crowds...takde kuih2 raya, takde gi visit2 pon....ada mak and ina masak laksa and rendang also. Org KL balik bawak ketupat. Lemang beli jer. So blasah menda2 tu lah...petang jumaat lepas prayer gi kuala kangsar kejap..tengok cikyah sbb dia tak sihat katanya..the whole lot of us except amran. Dia kejer hari sabtu so tak follow kitaorg balik kg. Lepas tu..terus ke bagan serai..masa ni dah maghrib dah.
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Lepak2 jer....cak buat mee kari yummm..kena serbu dek kitaorg hahaha irfan ok jer tp byk memerap and macam asik ngantuk jer aku tengok. So aku banyak kena dok bilik nak bagi dia tido. Nak tinggal..karang dia jaga tengok aku takde laks..so stay there jer. Malam tido ngan alang kat sebelah dia..merasa la irfan tido lesak pusing 360 darjah hahaha
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Come morning semua org sibuk2..ada korban kitaorg whole family buat..ada campur akikah skali..2 ekor lembu sumernyer....aku takdak menolong apa sangat pon just light2 and very minimum jer sbb dok tgk irfan since papa dia takder. Then bawak irfan gi tengok sembelih lembu tepi umah cak tu...lembu tu punyer laa ganaih..gerun aku. Aku la orang paling belakang skali masa nak bawak turun tu. Tp masa nak sembelih tu aku gi depan2 skali nak tengok..
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Setel tu..tunggu jer la daging siap utk masak2. Masa ni bahan2 sumer ready dah tunggu daging nak letak atas dapur jer. Masak daging masak kicap and rendang daging and sup. Memang sedapppp seriusly!! Tapi kan..aku macam tak makan byk sgt laks lauk2 nya ishh now tingat pulak! tp sup tulang mmg blasah kaw kaw oh my calory!! hahahha
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Mentara nak siap masak tu irfan jer dah baper round tido. Then around 3pm papa dia sampai....apalagi melepas rindu kat anak dia...jerrr laaaa hihihi...
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Tido another malam situ......sunday around noon bertolak. Kitaorg gi Queensbay Mall Penang pulak..saje jenjalan..partner i mmg suka jenjalan....shopping barang irfan la aku ni tak sudah. And bought nursing tea jugak sbb production dah merudum....nak up kan balik...tp sebenonyer aku yg dah jarang pumping...around petang kol 6 baru bertolak balik. Irfan tidoooo all the way from bagan serai till nak balik dari mall tu can u imagine. Dia cover tido sbb maybe kat bagan serai orang ramai gomol2 dia and cuaca was too hot..dia tak selesa..ni dapat aircond...lena zzzz la dia.
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Balik kitaorg lalu ikut kulim -grik - kuala kangsar - ipoh. 6pm - 12am. Sebab nak ngelak jam kat hiway. Amran yg suggest aku ikut jer la sbb aku taktau apa2 pasal jalan ni so cant comment much. Jalan dia jauh sikit tp smooth jer la..kecuali kat sayong kuala kangsar tu dah slow moving..kat chemor dan stop teruih dah.
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And irfan tidoooo jugak dalam keter...aku letak tilam dia and letak dia situ instead of car seat dia. So selesa la badan dia for long hours drive tu.
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Okehh esok citer lain laks...

Cerita irfan

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Semalam irfan starts his first berdiri. Dia dah kerabat2 pegang badan nak berdiri all these while..tp malam tadi dia start berdiri dah. Merangkak dia belum lagi though..
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Pagi tadi dia jaga awal dalam kol 3.30am pehtu takleh tido...nak main...jenuh la mommy melayan...
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Isnin lepas aku ke KL naik ETS...saje je jenjalan shopping2....shopping baju2 raya irfan...gi sorang jer..amik early train at 9am and balik naik train kol 6pm. Sampai sana ina amik and well gi sunway pyramid..ok laa..lain kali boley buat lagi.
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Just finished a looooooong meeting. Rasa macam nak balik jer la..although ada jer keje boley buat. Opis pon dah senyap nih..
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Job vacancy

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As a babysitter for irfan for a month boleyy??? kihkihkihkih
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Babysitter kena undergo an operation at her hand....so mintak coti sebulan..how lorr.....hrmm entah lah....havent think deep yet...tp gotto to solve this one asap gaks.
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Smlm irfan dah move on to another new recipe....avocado puree!! and loved it yesterdayy!! aku blend gaks sebiji kurma thinking that kot2 avocado to plain tawar jer rasa...tp the kurma didnt blend halus sgt sbb aku tak kukus sbb last minute thot of that..nak bagi ada sikit2 rasa manis. Irfan bukak mulut jer mau..and he ate a lot yesterday! Now i'm waiting and curious of how his poo poo will be like. Hopefully normal and tak sembelit indicating avocado is okay for him.
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Balik dari kejer smlm singgah tesco kejap sbb kat dalam peti ais tu dah takde apa2...got papaya and thot nak bagi dia ni after pear haritu but then yesterday came across a conversation over a forum saying papaya should be introduced at 8m...so to yg kelam kabut singgah tesco kat tepi opis ni jer ha. If not normally the three of us akan shopping sesama for irfan's-related things.
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Oklah tu jer...

Who's??

After all these while playing with facebook, only this morning i realize of this one habit of mine!
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That is..
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When ever i log in to the site, i will go to this one page....first.
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And that page is...
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jeng jeng jenggg hehehehuhuhu

Tadaaaaaa

Hehehehh



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Uneraseable visual

Fuhhh..malam tadi ada pengalaman yg mengerikan kat aku. The visual keep on playing over and over again in my mind. Nauzubillah mintak dijauhkan...
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Aku tido umah mak aku semalam kat ipoh....and as usual tido kat hall bentang comforter jer.....Irfan dah tido earlier lepas maghrib...then around 1 hr dia terjaga balik so mula la sihat cergas segor bugor dia main2......aku dah ngantuk dah masa kol 11pm tu and dia tak tido lagi...neway parents and amran stilll around sbb sesambil dok tgk bola smlm.
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Then amran ngantuk and aku dengo krohh krohh dah dia...and irfan pon sambung menyusu balik indicating he's about to sleep balik. So parents pon tidoq. Si irfan ni sesambil meniarap la..menyusu main2..kejap meniarap kejap tertonggeng la.
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One second aku tgk dia dah tak nyusu tp nak merangkak2...in another second aku dengo dia dah ekk ekk macam nak menangis aku bukak mata rupanya dah bawah meja !! Terkejut aku..terus bangun panggil hubby and ambik irfan. But this was not the part yg mengerikan aku.
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The part was...
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When i opened my eyes tgk dia bawah meja tu...dia tgh kelebek ubat nyamuk letrik tu! Syukur ubat nyamuk tu tak berpasang! And....sebelah ubat nyamuk tu is dia nyer fill in tu yg dah pakai..tak berbuang. Tersirap nyer aku semalam..thinking kalau lah irfan menjulur amik that used ubat nyamuk tu and bawak ke mulut..huhh nauzubillah...sbb dia ni skang sumer bawak masuk mulut....so masa sambung nyusu dia lepas angkat irfan tu..the image really disturbed me and kept me awake for sometime. Tu pon Tuhan nak tolong bagi si irfan melencong sikit...kalau dia jumpa dulu yg used ubat nyamuk tu..heeeee jauhkan lah...tu pon siannya irfan smlm tersekat bawah meja tu..huhuu must be extra extra careful next time.
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phewww....I take what happened yesterday as a warning sign given by God to remind me to keep all those things out of his reach, now that he's at this stage already. Ha ah la...if not maybe aku tak teringat kot sbb dia ni belum menjulur jauh, belum merangkak... Thank you Allah for the early reminder...
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Cottage Pie

Ni entry tertunggak sebenonyer ni. Remember the other day in one of my entries i said gonna do sheperd pie..so i did that weekend. Tapi tak sempat nak share photos. Story mory nothing much sbb sama jer ala2 cam lasagna process dia. Owh cuma...i made and dapat 2 bekas caserrole tu...so buat hari ahad petang..hari senin pagi tu bagi sebekas kat babysitter irfan...sajer nak jaga relationship heeheehee.....and she and the whole family loved it so much!! hahaha so kira berjaya laaa kan. It's cottage pie coz i used beef minced instead of lamb minced. According to curlybabesatisfaction.blogspot, thats what makes the difference in the name based on its main ingredient nya. Resipi taken from there.
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 Dah siap dah bahan2 nye. Kali ni white sauce nyer lebih smooth and creamy..sbb ala2 dah pandai nak adjust heehee

 After putting the minced beef, i put the white sauce before cover with mashed potato

 Ni sblm letak white sauce tadi. This pic should be put up

All set for baking

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Roper tak baper nak cantik hehehe
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Ok till another resipi pulakkkk yerrrr
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Point view

1. Lately slalu sangat sakit kepala......bukan migraine..tp blood go upstairs kot hehehe.. need good massage on the body and head and shoulder but couldnt find the time. Even weekends are full till end November.

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2. Irfan dah in position to merangkak tp belum gerak2 lagik..teragak2..and bila dia move one step.kedebush jatuh hehehe

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3. Irfan dah makan 3 types of pureed semi solid food dah...apple, sweet potato and pear. Yesterday started with pear and like i thot, he loved it the most as compared to the other two. Just like mommy..loves pears, the fruit...not the body-shaped pear hehehe

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4. I realized I picked up the smallest of things and brought up an argument with mr hubby. Dont know why..bukan sbb stress or pressure..maybe because i gave in and pendam too much and too deep inside agaknya.

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5. Loves my position here..the challenges, the people, the work. But sometimes too headache with problems that come day in and day out. 

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6. Maybe I'm being too ambitious or something...dah sibuk ngan kejer but still take the opportunity to proceed getting and securing grants for research. End up macam tak cukup tangan nak buat kejer, tak cukup brain cells to think.

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7. ...

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8. Pity one of my bosses. People dont like her. Even I am getting fed up and headache also with her. Nevertheless, i pity her when the issues about her comes one after another. Am praying for the best for her..

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8. Pray that Allah lindungi aku dari buat benda2 yang tak betul, tak ethical and so on...amin..

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9. Itu jer dulu..

Sweet tooth

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Irfan dah tumbuh gigi dah semalam!! Dua batang belah bawah..tu pon babysitter sms bagitau...patut la dok demam jer...alhamdulillah dah recover..
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Time for Irfan's first semi-solid food

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Irfan had his first semi solid food yesterday evening. After much reading, pondering, asking opinions...finally i settled with apple puree to be irfan's first. Dia makan few suaps then bila i letak sudu depan mulut dia..dah katup mulut dah hehehe. Thot its ok for the first day. Harini kita makan lagiiii okkk.
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Many stories to update but too busy these days..
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Hot hot hot news!!

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The faculty i am in right now is said to be transferred elsewhere because the niche here should be architecture and art. huwaaaaa. said as either kedah, kelantan or segamat!! huwaaaa
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Jeng jengg jenggg!! bagaimanakah nasib ku...
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Shepherd Pie!

Belum buat lagi laaaa hahahah.
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Okeh niatnya nak buat weken ni insyaallah sbb bahan2 lebihan lasagna masih ada dan berguna untuk buat ni. Tinggal nak kena beli potato and some one or two ingredients ajer. Okeyyyyy lets see if jadik buat ker dak ekkkk hehheheh.

Baking issue

I baked!! hahahah

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Plan asalnyer haritu nak bake kek ker kan....or roasted chicken ker kan...tak menjadik..instead buat lasagna! hehehe i know to some people maybe kacang jerr tp this is my first time making one and merasmikan microwave aku tu sbg oven! huhuhuuu Actually beli masa balik mesia haritu untuk kegunaan rumah...and mmg beli konon2 yg utk convection oven use skali sbb aku pkir tak yah nak beli 2 menda..just one item with 2 functions. Tapi till yesterday tak penah guna or try the oven function hehehehe smlm try, dan menjadik larrr.

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Maleh beno nak taip citer2...esok2 yer..tgk gambo dulu..

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 mula2 buat sos daging dia dulu...then buat white sos dia pulak..then celur lasagna tu./...then all ready utk prepare that dish. resipi amik dari blog cik mat gebu tiffinbiru.blogspot.com. Of course ada yg di alter2 sikit ikut apa yg ada kat umah tuu hehehe..

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 the first layer dah siap....then ulang the same step..aku buat 4 layer sumer..
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and dah siap masakkkkk..still hot hot lagi ni. rasanya???? to me sedapppp! hahaha sedap dan menjadi laa..altho rupa dia ntah la nak kategori kan camana hehehehe rupanya senang jer nak buat lasagna..betul la org kata, tak cuba belum tau...lepas ni nak try apa laks eksss...tungguuuu.

Cuti cuti cuti!!

Wahhh cuti dan rehatttttt.
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Esok plannya nak gi bawak irfan untuk cucuk 5 bulan dia then probably drop by a friend's house for her raya open house. Actually dah lebih seminggu dah ni...tak sempat nak bawak dia. Then nak gi singgah tesco ke giant ke beli bahan2 untuk buat cake!! hahaha tengoklah kalau menjadik..and also nak buat apa eks...roasted chicken ke apa ker.
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Apa lagi nak citer...last weken insan n family singgah umah..hrm..rasa macam byk nak citer2 tadi..tp macam blank laks skang......sedeynyer facebook kita dah tak boleh nak komen2..taktau kenapa..uhukk..boring la camni...nak guna mobile laks...offlate ni line 3G kedebamm kedeboom hancusssnya..haihh so takdak social life secara maya these days very the tensi!! sib baik balik umah tengok muka irfan and layan dia boley buat bahu2 kurang jadik stiff. I need a good massage lah.
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Ok weken ni cutiiiii til mondayyy yahooooo. Apa plan? takde plan....Initially wanted to go to KL visiting friends and also attending some invitations...tapi, ada 2 kursus this saturday..one i have already turned down preparing for another compulsory one. But by now email belum masuk lagi for that one so aku akan bertindak mengabaikann sajer. But i already cancel with my friends dont want to put them on hold forever.
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Irfan dah golek2 depan belakang dah alhamdulillah...kejap2 terlentang kejap2 terlangkup. Actually bila dia dah boleh gini lagi kena watch out daripada masa dia tak boleh haritu. Then dah jadik komando bersedia untuk merangkak..tp lom merangkak lagi...menjulur dah la. Giggle dan gelak2 yg tersangat2 la bila orang main ngan dia. Bila ngantuk pon tp dapat main...amboiii segor dia. Tu la orang kata budak2 kan..nak maaaaaainnn jer kejernyer.
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Ok lah tu dulu.
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Shopping

Aku rasa aku nak gi beli ipad lah. Hrmm..memula macam nak pkir2 antara ipad or samsung galaxy something-something tapi got no time to check check and compare...i just heard that ipad is better..so rasa macam nak beli lah. Maybe weken ni maybe next weken.
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Entah apa yg aku stress kan or apa mood aku ntah tetiba rasa nak shoooopppingggg jer dunno why. Semalam ada event sikit kat ipoh town so on the way back to the office, terus singgah fareeda butik kat station 18 and beli jer dua helai tudung. Actually dah pilih tiga..memula 4 wahh tingginya cita2 hehehe tolak satu...then ok...tanya adik tu, "dik, 3 lai ni baper rege dik?". Adik tu kira2 then kata, " 500 plus plus kak". aku pon, "makkkkk" (dalam hati) melampau lah for 3 tudung only so tolak satu lagik hahaha. End up beli 2 hehehehe. Aku tingin fareeda lamaaaaa giler dah. Aku mmg jarang2 salivating over products. In fact mungkin tak penah..i mean really really drool dan slurpingggg over products. Tapi fareeda ni mmg tingin sangat but i just felt that it is sooo expensive to my kemampuan! ehehehe end up tak beli2...dok laa tengok page update dia kat facebook sambil meleleh ayaq lioq dan asik cakap dalam hati cantiknya cantiknya cantiknya but too expensive. Tapi tah apa mimpi semalam aku just drive, drop by and shop. hahaha anywayyy yeahooo impian menjadi realiti!! hehehe
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And now macam rasa nak beli ipad laks hahahha.
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Owh and also, i suddenly have this urge to start belajar2 baking... baking cakes, cupcakes, macaroon, pavlova and such..and to do that, i might need a kitchen aid mixer wahhhh!! hahahaha ribu raban tau mixer ni padahal baru nak first try buat kek!! hahahha.
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But that niat to start belajar baking2 is genuine you know.....mana tau ada tetamu istimewa singgah umah one sweet day ker aku boley serve things that i bake instead of beli kek secret recipe everytime heheheh.
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Owh another one, aku pon dah niat nak belajar masak lauk yg spesel2 hehehe
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Ok too much berangan! Ok laterrrrr
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Favourite clips

At the moment these are the two of irfan's favourite clips to watch..where he'll keep quiet and focus closely...sometimes smile, sometimes sing along-with-his-own-vocabs, and sometimes even shout! hahaha
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sajer nak simpan kat sini buat rekod utk irfan..
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Rindu padanya..

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yeahh same old story....rindu sangat...
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 terigau-igau, terbayang2 senyuman dia...shiann dia kena gi ke babysitter...mommy is having more separation anxiety than the baby..uhukk..

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Over the last weekend, just melepak jer kat umah..owh waittt..hari khamis haritu mak ada buat doa selamat sikit untuk ina yg baru balik dari Mekah...then tido ipoh....jumaat tu heaven betui cuti..bangun pagi golek2....bekfes sesama reramai...then siap2 nak kuor ke mall kejap cari hadiah kawen...

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Then balik umah berehat2 jer...kasi irfan tido..ngan kitaorg skali sedap tidooo...

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Sabtu tu ada wedding colleague kat batu gajah and taiping....so berjalan.....punyer ler panas cuaca kan....lepas tu terus bawak irfan ke zoo hehehehe actually i think the papa is more excited than the baby!! hehehe masa tu dah kol 5 ptg dah..zoo nak tutup pon kol 6.....irfan pon actually dah tired2 jugak dah....tp amran kata dah alang2 sampai bawak jer lah...so gi lah...i didnt enjoy to be honest hehehe sebabnya?? sbb rasa uneasy bawak baby ke zoo yg ala2 hutan tu...hehe being old-fashion jugak aku ni risau jugak kang budak meragam ke bawak tempat yg redup2 gloomy tu....aku dalam hati nak cepat2 jer balik but of course tak cakap kat amran sbb dah bayo tiket 24 ringit for two takkan nak dok 10 menet jer?? hahaha and irfan didnt look that excited sbb dia pon dah berlengas badan....but menatang2 yg besor2 tu dia boleh tengok and focus on la like gajah, rimau, zirafah and such...half way jalan kami naik train jer sbb nak cepat cover hehehe

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And boyyy am i glad bila dah dapat kuor dari zoo tu hahaha and yes, all these dalam hati jerrrr hehehe but i read that it's actually good to expose baby/kids to different environment to stimulate their mind and thinking....idakler asik shopping complex jer kannn hehehe cuma len kali we should go in the morning masa irfan segor bugor masa tu...haritu masa gi makan kat moven peak tu ada aquarium ikan kat situ..amran bawak dia gi tengok...irfan punyer tengok la ikuttt jer gerak geri ikan tu hehehe hrmm apa pagi tempat2 yg sesuai nak bawak baby ni pegi eks....

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Balik2 tu..bagi irfan mandi...rehat2 kejap and maghrib2 dulu..then off kuor laks ke amran's fren's house...by now dah penat actually tp dah janji nak gi...so stay pon tak lama..kejap jer nunjuk muka...dan sempat gaks makan beround-round haha

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Entry bergambar

can hold my milk bottle alreadyyy :*

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ni gambo malam semalam.....pegi makan kat moven peak for grilled food kat greentown..irfan punyer suker la..sbb outing

ralit dgn teether dia...

Irfan's milestones

Irfan is now at 5 months and sihat walafiat alhamdulillah......haritu dia ada selsema sikit....and badan macam dedo..so pegi Dr..and bagi dia ubat la..tp tak frequent.. bgai 2, 3 kali jer...lama gak selsema dia nak recover...bukan selsema teruk..sikit2 jer tu yg tak bagi ubat tu...alhamdulillah dua tiga hari ni tak takde....
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Irfan masa masuk 4 bulan haritu dah start meniarap yeayy!! heheheh but then dia tak aktif sgt meniarap lepas tu..ada la sekali dua jer..then masa cuti raya haritu..few days before raya masa dok ngan aku kat umah..baru dia aktif meniarap..raya2 pon meniarap gaks..ok la tu...letak kejap mentara nak tukar pampers pon dah berpusing dia...mentara nak amik tuala mandi dia, dah bunyi ekk ekk sbb dah mengah meniarap hehehe and sekaligus dia dah start mengensot ke depan dah..tak pegi jauh pon..sikit2 jer..so what i do is, letak his feveret toy kat depan dia for him to reach...belum le ngensot jauh lagi...skang dah start angkat2 punggung
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Penat la mommy....

Almost there yeahh

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Selamat Hari Raya..

hehehhehehe a bit out of date la pulak entry wish raya hahaha..
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harini baru start kojer..maleh nyerrr....mood lemau sbb makan banyak....but i enjoy my raya! alhamdulillah..
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raya tahun ni kat umah mak tak berapa meriah sbb adik badik tak der..tinggal aku jer..atan and adik kat umah in laws depa..while ina beraya kat mekah...so first raya tu..ala2 jer menu raya...with me and baby now, mmg susah nak masak2 dah...just rendang tok and lemang and kuih raya..then pagi raya baru buat bihun sup..express jer pon...then gi umah in law aku...lepak2..pehtu gi studio amik gambo bertiga with irfan..utk merakamkan his first raya with us....then menyinggah terus umah in law wai and erin.....hanya 3 rumah jer tp pancit bagai nak rakk..last year rasanya lagi byk rumah menyinggah tp rasa macam idak ler pancit sgt..irfan ok sepanjang raya ni..in good mood and behave very well so far kat umah orang..tido cukup susu cukup..
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raya kedua...we all ke bagan serai and parit buntar..my kampong and amran's kampong.....we all jer pegi..mak tak ikut pon.....sampai ke malam baru balik....ikut hiway and luckily pegi and balik tak terserempak ngan jem...
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raya ketiga...ke kuala kangsar umah encik yg buat open house...actually nak pegi kejap2 jer sbb nak kena balik masak and prepare2 sbb esoknyer fren2 nak datang..and knowing amran kejer aku kena pulun wat sumer tu today masa amran ada boley tengok baby...tapi..sampai ke petang jugak melepaknyer..
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raya ke empat...amran dah kejer..tinggal aku and irfan jer..amboii irfan masa raya gi umah orang..depa2 dok amik dia..elok jer..ni tinggal ngan aku jer kemain memerap lagi...tokley tinggal langsung.....and also bat datang gaks harini..thanks for dropping by nyah! sempat wat mee goreng jer kat bat....petang tu around 6pm, wai & asrul, noreen & marwan & H datang..depa melepak sampai kol 10 malam...sampai ke coffee pulak laa..just like old times kat sydney dulu....
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raya ke lima..dok rumah sajork.....shima and lin datang...
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raya ke enam..berehat2 dan melepak ngan irfan..
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saturday gi wedding...and sunday semalam buat makan2 raya sikit kat umah for siblings, families and relatives.....masak bihun sup and mak bagi nasi tomato and mak mertua bagi mee rebus...hehehehe then beli carrot and chocolate cake jer..
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so dah tau dah skang...kalau tinggal berdua jer ngan irfan payoh no nak masak2 dah...kena tunggu weken masa amran ada, baru sempat masuk dapur...
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oklah tu jer.....

Mood raya

Ha ah laa...dah mood raya dah ni. Actually mood melepek harini..ntah naper cam tak larat laks......semalam dua hari cuti melepak ngan irfan, ni nak masuk kejer balik berchentaaa sunggoh. Shiann irfan kena gi kat babysitter dah. Punyer ler dia sakan dok ngan mommy dia yerrr...nak menyusu, anytime anywhere jer! heheheh..teringat2 kat dia nih..haihh ada meeting laks harini...if not dah sambung cuti...tp takleh gaks sbb sure ada menda nak setel2 sblm cuti raya ni. Baru apply cuti raya seminggu jap tadik. Shopping2 raya dah sudah...of course ler baju irfan jugak yg dulu nyer..my tudung dah sudah walaupon baju lom siap! agak2 jer lah kaler dia. Sbb baju siap nun jumaat nun..mana nak nunggu nyer. Tinggal nak beli baju melayu amran jer saturday nanti lepas tgk baju raya untuk match kan. fuyyooo very the last minute this time!.
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Aku tak pasang/dengo pon lagu raya this time. Sebab kat opis ni youtube dan seangkatan dengannya dah kena block..agaknya sbb tu kot suasana raya tak baper terasa. Cuma dalam radio on the way to/fro ofis jer dengo.
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Lain apa? tu jer kot dulu..
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20 Ramadhan dan cerita ceriti

Dah 20 hari berpuasa dah....cepatnyer..cepatnyer masa berlalu....rasa macam baru jer masuk puasa...and rasa macam baru jer cakap kat diri sendiri haritu, dah start masuk fasa kedua 10 malam kedua ramadhan nak kena grab cecepat fadhilat nyer..tengok2 dah masuk final phase dah. Kena kuatkan and cepat2 grab lagi mana yg sempat. Terawih aku this year..tak tentu masa...tak penah skali pon buat awal2 lepas isyak tu..semuanya kol 2 pagi la,  1 pagi la kol 4 pagi pon ada..bergantung pada keterjagaan mata. Melepas pon ada jugak. Sebab irfan tido lepas berbuka tu..so aku pon tertido..tp hikmahnya pulak banyak boley buat tahajjud sbb terbangun balik tetengah malam..alhamdulillah..
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Setakat ni dah few times berbuka posa kat luar..kat hotel. Sajer jer...Tapi tak best sgt la buffet spread kat hotel2 yg aku  try...Irfan laks..ada masanya dia ok senyap...ada masanya dia bising so tak berapa puas gaks makan tp amran ajak so pegi jugak la. Ni this weekend dia ngajak gi Impiana hotel laks...tengok la camana. Also sumer buka puasa beli jer kat pasar ramadhan..and weken berbuka kat umah mak kat ipoh. Kuih raya laks i have no intention utk beli hehehe tp dah beli 3 bekas utk makan sekarang..and dah tinggal setengah/suku bekas dah hehehe.
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Persediaan raya nothing much..haritu ingat nak tukar langsir..tp dok tok tek tok tek dah too late nak gi beli kain tempah. Tokley beli siap sbb langsir aku ni up high nak ke siling punyer so kena tailor made rather than custom made. Bosan la..nak gak tukar suasana kaler rumah tu. Baju2 dah tempah 5 pasang hahahaha tu diaaahh...heheheh skali ngan bajukejer la tu. Almaklumla..baju2 aku sumer dah longgar sangat2..gelebeh u..bahu pon jatuh and to a point ada yg kainnyer aku kena buh pin to buckle. See....in my entire life i never thought this would happen..kuasa Allah sapa yg tau..teiba Dia nak bagi slim, slim ler jadiknyer..alhamdulillah.
Tapi tudung to match belum beli sbb all the baju-s belum siap. Kang tak match laks kalau tak bawak. So maybe next week kot shopping. Baju2 irfan pon belum beli. Actually sbb aku selalu sangat beli baju utk irfan almost every month..so aku dont bother sangat nak classifykan beli baju raya irfan...and aku tak buat pon baju melayu irfan coz i think he's too small to fit into one. Nanti menggelebeh and dia tak selesa panas and all and pakai pon dah tentu sekejap jer masa raya. So might as well beli tshirt and seluar jer.
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Apa lagi nak pok pek ni..actually skrg ni tgh boring, tgh melepek..tp nak balik like too early....aku tgh menunggu cina datang install kipas siling and lampu tangga ni. Nunggu dia call nak datang nih. Both tu rosak..and kipas siling tu aku beli baru jer terus. Actually aku hangin gaks kipas tu rosak sbb beli yg elok2 and cantik punyer tp dah rosak. Yer lah dah bertahun2 dah tp kalau kipas putih simple one tu boley pakai lama kan. Taktau apa rosaknya..maleh nak pkir cari wireman and all, beli jer baru.
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Oklah tu jer. Ngantuk la pulak..saper yg baca ni pon mesti ngantuk jugak kan?? hahaha too bad!
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Selamat berpuasa, selamat berbuka puasa, selamat bersahur..

Thinking too much...

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Have u ever experienced a situation where u're almost stucked at your point of standing simply due to thinking too much?? Ada kan? I guess thats why some people say, dont think too much..just do it. hehehe hrmm...u want to do this, opt for something else, choose another..but because yes, think too much of the consequences u end up dare not take a single move..hehehe
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Takpe lah melalut..
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Anyway, my baby him dah 4 months old alhamdulillah..so far so good..ada demam sikit and selsema sikit as soon as he reached 4 months on the dot haritu and quickly i brought him to the clinic and after 2 doses of medicine, he recovered alhamdulillah. Although i heard or maybe read somewhere that its not advisable for babies to consume medicine at this very early age, i however dare not take the risk of the temperature to rise higher. So takperlah just try this time.
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Irfan now frequently smile and gigles and loves to test the voice that he possess now by talking a lot! and sometimes with high tone! hehhehe He's now at 7..2kg but panjang dia lupa nak ukur pulak sbb 4 month takde cucuk imunisasi tu kan. so i forgot. Masa 3 month he was at 57cm or was it 69cm lupa dah kena bukak buku balik. Makan ubat haritu ok jer maybe babies ok kot makan ubat sbb ubat dia manis..
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Owh btw puasa was alright so far alhamdulillah...cik peyed belum datang since bersalin haritu ...i sure hope at the very least please wait till the end of ramadhan takyah nak mengganti sok heeheehee...bangun sahur the usual time..sometimes a lil early and off late kind of a lil late..kol 4.30 baru terjaga baru nak kelam kabut masak nasi...tak masak the night before sbb lepas buka jer dan tidokan irfan and aku pon zass..
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talking about irfan, i heard his ekk eekk already upstairs..time to go off feeding him.
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later

First Ramadhan with irfan sayang..

So this is our first ramadhan together......and i already almost made decision that i might need a baby monitor! heheheh..bangun sahur tadi around 4am..then turun bawah prepare2.....time nak makan tu angkat dia turun bawah. Sian dia tergannggu tido dia tp takkan nak tinggal dia sengsorang kat atas tu kan. So dia pon dah terjaga terus and mata bulat laks tu.Selama ni dia takde dah jaga sesubuh sepi or malam just ekk ekk nak susu jer. Lepas makan tadi siap main2 ngan dia lagi bukak youtube nursery rhyme favourite dia tu. Makin segor le dia. Only after subuh baru dia lena balik. Hrmm...so maybe nak kena beli baby monitor la kot yg siap ada display tu..so that boley la tinggal dia kat atas masa sahur tu...sambil monitor dia.
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Harini insyaallah nak gi berbuka umah mak kat tmn perpaduan.,.,,oh yea..aku ada submit paper to a journal..a top ranking journal for my area...and also in the process of preparing a paper for a conference in Turkey!! Aku doa and harap sangat2 dua2 intention aku ni termakbul...amin....dah lama tak gi tour....paid tour hehehe...also kalau dapat, irfan will be setahun dah nanti.,.bestnyerrrr bawak dia jalan2 visit. Actually ada another conference in California..the same conference that I went masa tgh buat PhD dulu yg kat Portland tu. Gi US ni mmg syok la shoppinggg..sakan laa..tp teringin gi belah lain laks...teringin lak gi Turkey ni ..kalau ada UK lagi laa aku ndak hehehe..takpelah moga tercapai...
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Lagi satu update...aku baru jer been appointed for a new post kat tempat kejer ni just after aku masuk kejer lepas cuti bersalin haritu..not bad jugak post ni sbb rasanya akan bawak benefit pada career path aku..insyaallah..insentif pon ada sikit..alhamdulillah..

Kebahagiaan

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Masih adakah lagi kebahagiaan itu untuk aku dan dia? Asyik bergaduh jer memanjang skarang....sedih..sedih..
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Susah wooo

Curbing old habits is very D.I.F.F.I.C.U.L.T. oneeee
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Old habits die hard indeed.

Celebration

Celebrating my 100th day of giving birth this weekend!! hew hew hew

Why o why

Sejak menjak masuk kejer ni....(last thursday), selera aku makin mencanak2 naik..naper haa?? adakah sebab.....aktiviti pengepaman dan penyusuan yg semakin kerap..atau...sebab ramai kata aku dah kurus??? hehehehehe. Kena jaga2 ni..ishhh
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All in all,  i lost 13 kg altogether once i give birth. I enjoy my weight loss so much because i know very well that it is damn difficult for me to shed even 2 kg at any time before this. So...alhamdulillah..didnt know with the arrival of irfan, luck came my way too in many tremendous forms..and one of it is this weight loss. 
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Irfan's been a good boy so far..alhamdulillah and i think he survived his stay at babysitter thus far. Of course there must be cries and whatnot once in a while especially i'm sure during his time napping time coz he always want me by his side./..but all in all, i think he's in good hands insyaallah.
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Love check

Challenging nyer laa haii

Before that, aku boleyy terlupa dah id dan password blog ni?? hahaha tu diahh lost in mind betuii..and luckily read somewhere that kalau lupa password boley email jer blogger tanya...mentara nunggu respon try and error lagi teruih dapat..hehe kira idak le lupa..cuma at the back of my mind jer....hehehe...
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Neway, nak citer ni...finally finally finally...its time to train my lil man to go to his baby sitter as i'll be going to work very very soon..huwaaaaaa mommy cry cry lorrrr!! hehehehe cian nyerr si cayang bucuk tu nak anto kat umah orang..tu la..cuti lama2 ni dah melekap jer ngan dia..haa ni kan berat hati dah..uhukk...dalam seminggu lepas ni this week aku train dia bottle feeding and no direct feeding at all masa office hours. Si kecik tu punyer la nangis nangis..aku adoiii tak lalu hati ngan his cries and pleas tu so mmg kalah la we all ngan training ni hehehe baik anak baik mak nyer kalah hehehe terus bawak masuk bilik perap dan peluk2 hehehehehrmphh.....tp bottle dia nak cuma time dia nak tido tu dia nak aku baring sama ngan dia...malam boley laa..tang siang ni yg nak training dia..and mmg challenging laa this week....
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And, babysitter yg dah dijanjikan tu actually area perumahan aku jer but masa gi sembang2 umah dia haritu tetiba makcik tu kata tokley pulak sbb nak jaga cucu dia..ishh...dah la tinggal 2 minggu jer ni...btw yg berjanji cakap bagai ni haritu bukan aku..my father in law. So i trust everythings settled la tu..takkan makcik tu tak cakap kot masa tu yg anak dia dah nak bersalin very soon...haishhh...so kelam kabut la jugak aku ni.....last last cari kat area umah mak aku ni..ada akak blakang umah mak ni..tanya and she agree....so smlm gi lah training irfan for 3 hours..shiannn dia...tp masa amik dia tu he looked fine and tak nangis2 pon...shiann dia...harini patutnyer anto utk belah petang pulak but right now he's sound asleep at the verandah so macam tak sampai hati lorrr nak anto..lagipon berapa jam sgt nak anto kang petang dah nak amik..so kensel for today....
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I was in a dilemma for quite some time in deciding nak cari babysitter yg near to my office ker (1 hr from ipoh) or near my mom's house ker (near to amran as he's working in ipoh). Dok ponder the pros and cons...pikir2..hrmmm....try ipoh la..sbb apa2 hal parents aku ada dekat kot kot la irfan nangis2 ker apa.....and also panel clinic amran kat ipoh...kalau dekat ngan aku kat seri iskandar sok, the pros is i can see him to bf him tp not all the time aku boleh keluar..so tgk lah sini dulu camana....harap2nya ok la....cuma amran nak kena kuar awal sket utk lajak ke tmn perpaduan ni anto..then baru ke ofis dia..hrmm.
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In the mean time, this week and next week aku doa dipermudahkan utk aku training si kecik irfan utk tido siang tanpa perlu berkepit ngan aku..amin amin...

Irfan at 2 months

Baby irfan is already 2 months old...alhamdulillah doing well so far. His milestones now include ability to lift up his head, follow sounds when we call him up from different angle, smile a lot! yes smile and opened his mouth to laugh but no sounds just yet! Sweetnyerr bila dia senyum and gelak tu...mak mana laa tak cakap anaknyer sweet kan hehehe....Mengiring badan pon dah boleh dah..ayyoo suka play around malam2 laa takmo tido hishhh..tido ada la kejap2 then jaga...siang nyer tu diah tidoo lena. Menolak botol susu laa dia..he likes direct feeding so much more...nak kena beli bottle and teats yg lookalike and feels like the natural one laa...sebulan lagi dah nak start kejer...
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Aku yg selama ni sangatlah tidak berjaga malam//.now...berjaga malam tu dah macam second nature dah..malam dah macam siang..i mean like idak la aku takot2 sangat dah.....2 am, 4 am, 1.30 am sumer like siang hari dah pada aku...
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Weekend ni nak balik umah batu gajah kejap..nak clear up cuci2 mop vacuum umah..to prepare utk bawak balik baby nanti..also ada kenduri kawan amran kat situ....last weekend dah gi jusco station 18 yg baru tu...keluar pon dah petang around 3pm. Yesss dah ada baby ni baru tau nak betul2 ready to go out needs some time..dah tak sama macam dulu...dok tok tek tok tek dari lunch time tu sudahnya kol 3 jugak baru kuar umah...gi cari baju irfan kejap..cari baju yg elok2 sikit...setakatni dia takde baju elok2 sgt just baju harian kat umah jer..maklumla dalam pantang kan.....setel tu jer dah dekat kol 5 then gi makan...ahaa makan pon dah tak sama macam dulu hehehehe kalau baby tido ok makan dengan tenangnya...bila dia jaga, kalau dia diam dalam stroller takdak hal..kalau dia okk ekk ekk suh angkat or nak jenjalan..jawabnya sorang makan dulu then the other..so sudahnya tak sempat nak meronda other outlets sbb by then dah kol 6.30pm!! Aku sejak ada baby ni tak pakai jam tgn lagi sbb nak mendukung dia takot scratch ke apa...so unaware of time. Skali tanya amran lepas setel makan, dia kata dah 6.30 pm terkejut dogggg aku! Sbb tak sesuai baby kuar sampai nak bunga2 senja especially baby kecik yg baru lepas hari ni..kelam kabut balik....malam tu aku saspen gaks takot irfan meragam ke apa..but alhamdulillah dia lena terus jer...
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What else yer.....hrmmm.......tu dulu lah..
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i say a little prayer for you..

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Praying for a very very dear friend of mine....
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Hoping that things go alright on his side...
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Hoping that he'll recover very very soon..
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Rindu.....

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...rindu nak pekena my feveret caramel latte........yg kat sydney punyer.....yg kat pushcart kat dalam unsw punyer.......
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sigh...

First

First mother's day ever i could wish for myself! Feeling wonderfulllll...hehehe naahhh not really...felt nothing coz its still too new me being a mother...its just that this time i can claim the wish hehehe macam tu pon ada yer..hehhe..
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Also, harini first day outing for baby irfan and me.....Nak kena kuar utk beli kain pasang...and we only have weekends to go out...so kuarlah harini......it was a success! irfan being a good boy tadi...tak meragam and lena jer dalam stroller dia...mommy dia pon sopping kain dengan aman...dia dok kat luar mall ngan papa dia melayan dia.....then lepas tu gi jusco kejap. Actually idakla nak gi tp agaknya amran kemaruk nak gi outing together with me kot..beria ajak padahal nak beli deodoran jer boley??? hahahaha kat giant dekat2 rumah pon dia boleh pegi naik motor kan..anyway, gi jugok.and the damage done?? siap beli baju irfan lagii haha...siap beli buku citer lagi..So kat jusco pon dia ok jer..nangis nak susu....so mommy pon shopping dgn tenang jer hehehe
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Minggu depan mungkin nak ke bagan serai kejap kot..
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Ok later..

Irfan at 44 days

Harini irfan dah 44 hari alhamdulillah... my last day of pantang!! hehehehehe tp like i said to Put, rasa macam meaningless pon ada 44th day ni sbb basically still kena jaga makan, kelaku, nak kuar2 sumer tak baper nak ok lagi. Bertungku jer kot yg dah stop...and maybe takyah pakai stokin dah kot?? hahaha not really sbb tadi dengo abah aku kata sambung jer bertungku lagi dah mentelah daun mengkudu tu ada lagi nak perabihkan..ayyooo...maleh bebeno...
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Irfan si jantung hatiku itu..dah 44 hari harini...makin lama makin dapat akal kata org tua2.....tidoq nak berperap ngan mommy jer....tp sib baik belah malam jer gitu...belah siang dia elok jer tido dalam rocker dia bila kita bagi tido...come to think of it, ok gaks gini..esok2 lepas masuk kejer..anto kat pengasuh better this way than the other way round. Irfan dah pandai senyum2 dah....tengok2 and follow org dan bunyi....dan tak lupa jugak muka makin bolattt hehheehhe kuat nyusu..janji sihat..and sihat alhamdulillah...
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Apa lagi aaa....skrg ni dia tak tido loonggg hours dah camtu..tido kejap2..like 2 hours or 1.5 hours then terjaga dok ekk ekk..either nak menyusu or mengeliat2..then sambung tido balik.....menyusu dia skarang ni...aku bagi direct feeding jer...dah quite some time gaks tak pump...haritu macam tak sempat..lama2 tak pump da h..cuma quite frequent jer feeding dia..every hour..kadang2 tu bila dia nyusu dia terlena so kadang2 tu setengah jam dia nak nyusu balik......
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Malam laks........belum ada fixed time utk dia tido...tak baper lagi..tgh nak train dia la ni..tp 2, 3 harini nampak cam kol 7.30 or 8 mlm tu dia dah ngantuk nak tido...but then kadang kol 11 mlm gitu bgn balik dia....timing dia bangun mlm utk menyusu rasa dah boleh catch up dah.....kol 4 pagi tu time dia segar bugor nak main2 senyum2 mata bulat cerah......tp mommy and papa dia ngantuk tak hengat..
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Oklah nanti sambung pulak citer

Berpantang

Jadi merasa lah aku berpantang dalam erti kata sebenarnya iaitu berpantang selepas berjsalin. Merasa berpantang dulu masa gugur tp pantang 22 hari jer...and tak serius sgt...still kuar g jusco lagi..hehehe yg ni baru merasa...tp i guess its all in the mind set/.....jadinya idakla tingin itu ini....kot yer pon yg buat aku tak tahan ialah air sejuk di cuaca yg panas ni.
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Hari ketujuh haritu irfan luruh pusat pagi2 lepas mandi.....org tua2 kata kalau luruh pusat awal...tak degil hahaha betui ker....aku ni luruh hari apa eks hehehehe amran hari ke enam..and mmg tak degil pon..anak yg baik pada org tua dia mmg diakui....tp masa skolah dulu top 10 budak nakal kat skolah boley?? hahahaha anywaay, so kami buat majlis tahnik sikit hari ketujuh tu...aku pon tak reti..ni mak ler yg suh...belah mulut or org tua kata supaya baby tu cakap menda elok2 manis2 jer beso2 esok...kami panggil ustaz zul yg buat belah mulut tu..then bagi nama...nama mmg dah ada cuma macam merasmikan jer ngan nama muhammad irfan ni oleh ustaz tu...then last skali cukur jambul yg biasa kita tengok tu...lepas sorang2 gunting sesikit...mak panggil org mengaji and usrah dia..and ada la sedara kat kuale tu...so penuh jugak la kat beranda and dalam rumah....irfan elok tidoq ja masa majlis...
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What else aa.....mengurut pon aku start mengurut after a week bersalin and tu pon tak sentuh bhg perut...buat 3 kali seminggu.....selang seminggu...minggu ni minggu last mengurut so dapat la jugak 9 hari....ok la..aku rasa i found tukang urut kat ipoh ni dah utk urut badan lepas ni...
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Oklah nanti sambung

Sleeping issue

Baby irfan susah betoii nk tido malam skrg.....siang ok jer dia...

Life changing routine

So having a baby now has changes the routine that my marriage life has carried for 9 years all these while. Sometimes macam tak sangka i mean like......having a baby of myself to play with, to toy with and to fill up with. All up to me....and i get to decide on everything..i mean with my husband la of course. Selalunyer pegang2 baby orang....main2 jer...ni nak tentukan waktu mandi dia..waktu tido waktu jaga dia waktu minum susu..waktu nak bagi dia lepak2..pilih2 baju utk dia nak pakai and others...

And life has been so occupied too! Tapi rasanya dah getting used to this new routine and schedule. MAsa first few weeks of having a baby tu kelam kabut rasanya...walaupon tak panic tp macam take things too seriously laa hahaha...time nak tukar pampers dia, time nak mandikan dia..time feeding nak tidokan dia and all. Tapi skrg rasanya dah relax sikit dah..dah boleh tune up. Masa mula2 tu berpeluh2 masa mandikan dia, masa breastfeeding dia, masa nak pakaikan baju dia. Especially awal2 dalam pantang badan sentiasa rasa panas jer...and kuat betul berpeloh..menitik2 peloh kat muka and badan. Sebab tu agaknya drastik sangat berat badan aku turun. I think in the first two weeks i lost 10 kg. Apasal eks cepat sangat...lost of water kot. Aku minum jugak air suam tu tp beringat2 jugak kata org tua, minum at one time sikit2..padahal asyik dahagaaaa jer...and tak kira aku minum jugak kerap2 cuma smaller dose each time.
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Dah terenti pulak tadi menyusu baby...langsung mati idea laks nak sambung..oklah later yeah

Kisah bersalin - final

So aku stay kat hospital tu till monday..4 hari sumernyer kat situ. Petang tu dah ok..tak la rasa sakit2 sangat kesan operation tu sbb painkiller ada diberi..cucuk kat water drip tu so bearablea la. Bangun nak ke toilet terkemput-kemput. Baby nurse yg jaga tp kita boley request utk baby stay ngan kita at any time. CUma tido malam kat nursery..so masa kat spital tu masa first 3 days tu byk nurse yg jaga bagi susu and all. Aku start breastfeeding masa hari kedua..Main blasah jer aku taram breastfeed dia hahaha my very first experience in my entire life. It went well...tp masa tu susu tak banyak kuar....tp colostrum tu dapat la kat baby aku. Visitor datang jugak..sedara mara and kawan...Rektor tpt aku kejer pon datang jugak visit. Aku mmg sms kat dia beritau OT and selamat deliver.
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Tapi tido kat spital tak mau lena laa..rasa macam takot2 pu;lak entah kenapa. Amran tido kat bawah kat toto..aku mmg sedap la kat katil tu tp tak baper nak lena..so malam akhir u aku mintak amran tido sekatil ngan aku hhaha sbb not good feeling. Rupa2nya baru tau mak aku kata dalam pantang kalau ikut org tua, duduk dekat2 laki bini pon tak boleyyy hahaha mana tauuu...
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Apa lagi nka citer eks kat spital..tu jer la kot...

Kisah bersalin - di hospital

So hari jumaat pepagi tu sesiap...puasa dah masa tu...sampai di Pantai Hospital dalam dekat kol 9 am. Dr Mimin dah tunggu kat labor room so aku terus ke sana...masa ni mak and abah and amran ada skali. Sampai kat labor room, register myself..was given a room..and rehat kejap mentara depa nak prepare2...wahhh u la first time masuk labor room and menghadapi procedure gitu. Dia check BP, cek perut and nadi baby dulu...then salin baju dah. Dr masuk bilik kata dalam kol 10 kita masuk   OT yer dia ada delivery skang yg dah nak bersalin sgt dah. So mentara nunggu tu relaks2...baring2 atas katil...amik gambo pregnancy yg terakhir....amran pon getting used with the bilik geledah itu ini...then salin baju operation. Kol 9.45 am dah ready nak masuk OT.

Masa tu parents in law just in time sampai dari Seri Iskandar. Sempat salam2 sumer parents mintak maaf and amran skali lagi..then kena tolak masuk. Actually the procedure was not totally alien to me sbb sama jer ngan masa nak DnC masa gugur 2nd time haritu..exactly the same. So idak ler surprise sangat.
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Masuk OT....aku disuruh duduk....Anaesthetist tu nak cucuk belakang aku..cucuk tulang blakang tu spinal bius. This is the thing yg aku takotkann huwaaa sbb the idea jarum panjang tu nak cucuk tulang belakang...takottt...tapi tawakal...zikir byk2 aku masa tu..so dia bius dulu..which rasa macam kena gigit semut je....then dia pon cocok la tulang blakang aku tu. Alkisahnya tak rasa apa laa sbb dah bius hahaha itu yg aku takot sgt tu hehehe dia suruh aku tunduk...and fren dah pesan soh dok diam2 so that jarum boleh penetrate elok2. I noticed he was taking some time to get the jarum in..and then dia cakap..u nyer tulang ni kuat yer puan...tudiahh tak saspen ker aku ingat aii boleh masuk ke idak niii..then alhamdulillah lepas.After a while baring and nak mula dah operate.
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Masa mengandung ni lah aku realize advantage cari Dr /nurse melayu instead of Cina..sbb apa2 pon at the very least depa akan start ngan baca bismillah..masa amik darah masa pregnant dulu yg buat aku realize menda ni sbb ada skali tu nurse india,,sambil sembang2 ngan kawan jer then jabbbbb cocok..adoiiiii!!
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So the operation started at 10.15am and at 10.30am aku dengo bunyi baby aku nangis..Alhamdulillah..........dah kuar dah baby..masa ni aku nangis sama2 nangis ngan baby aku tu hehehehe sbb macam tak sangka sangat that i actually ada rezeki utk ada baby aku sendiri after awhile tunggu....mengalir la air mata..amran yg all the while ada kat kepala aku dok pegang tangan aku tu cool jer dia.....then jahit perut la..while the baby pi cuci..and amran gi bilik sblh kejap tgk baby..then nurse bawak baby dekat aku tunjuk..and i kissed him twice on both cheek..the feeling was sooo wonderful alhamdulillah...masa tu baby dah bukak mata..
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Kol 11am dah siap sumer and aku ditolak kuar dok kat cubicle utk observation for half an hr....then 11.30am ditolak masuk ke bilik ward aku balik. Masa ni both parents ada nunggu..amran pon dah salin balik baju dia from OT nyer baju tu and waited there as well.....aku ok jer masa tu tak rasa groggy atau apa sbb ubat painkiller tu kot....sembang2 kejap..then rehat sambil tido on and off....
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Soonafter baby pon ditolak masuk ke bilik aku...
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Ok esok sambung,..

Kisah bersalin si baby irfan

Irfan lahir pada 30/3 iaitu hari Jumaat yg mulia. You know what....actually masa mengandung dia dulu..aku selalu dok sebut2 kalau boley aku nak bersalin hari Jumaat..coz its a good day..,..tidak dijangka nak bersalin jugak hari Jumaat alhamdulillah..
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Ok pada hari khamis tu 29/3 as usual aku ada check up pasal result gula aku.....aku in fact still working and ada meeting petang tu and esoknya friday tu pon ada meeting ngan org luar. Doctor actually dah few times cakap kat aku, ada potensi utk aku kena ceaser sbb pelvic bone aku kecik.....tp aku diam jugak la.....so hari khamis tu tetiba result gula aku tinggi...Doktor gomen tu siap tepon gynae aku and consult ngan dia...gynae aku soh masuk esok utk buat ceaser. Abih citer! hahaha aku punyerrr la blur..sbb such a last minute call......unplan and unprepared..i mean tau la nak bersalin soon but not this soon!
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So, khamis tu half day terus balik umah...lepak2 tido then petang tu hangkut barang2 baby ke ipoh umah mak. Malam tu tido dengan tenang..entah kenapa idak pulak rasa berdebo2...mungkin terpaksa redho jer kot kena bersalin awal dari dijangka..one consolation was, its gonna be Friday! ok laa jugak.
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Oklah esok sambung

Smiling at wee hours

Irfan gave his first ever smile to me yesterday.......at 3 am!! Hahaha i was groggy in sleep n in the midst of lulling irfan to sleep after breastfeeding him while he happily looking up at me n smiled! Sweet!! My sweetheart is 1 month old today.

Muhammad Irfan

Baby is 25 days of life today.

30.03.12 : Welcome to the world, baby!

Alhamdulillah dah deliver baby boy, 3.15 kg pagi tadi at 10.29am at pantai hospital ipoh via ceasarian. Both mommy n baby sihat. Details of the happenings will come later yea!

Berita baekkk!!

Jeng jeng jenggg!!
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Hehehehe
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Alhamdulillah dapat naik pangkat, yeahoooooo!! hehehehe
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And backdate from last october laks tu yeahoooooo!!
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And bulan ni or bulan depan start gaji baru with SSM yg SBPA tak jadi tu kan kan yeahooooo!! hehehe
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Tu jer...rezeki baby sejak menjak pregnant ni melimpah ruah alhamdulillah, ....so syukur la dalam balik setahun ni walaupon the challenges nyer datang dari bermacam angle...tp God just has His way on rewarding us..kan kan...
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Agaknya sabar jer eks that we need to do in progressing with whatever difficulties we're having..
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Alhamdulillah...

Ten

1. Aku skang at 34 weeks, alhamdulillah. Cuti harini so ada masa nak tulis2 walaupon takde isi apa sgt pon nak citer2.

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2. Bangun pagi tadi rasa penattttt sangat and tak larat....badan ok tp tak larat...so was contemplating nak gi kejer or not nak gi kejer or not. Today got no class, so boleh untuk amik cuti. Otherwise hari2 yg ada class, tidak dibenarkan unless MC lah sakit. Last2.....lepas siap2 tengok amran gi kejer,,..rasa2 macam malas lah badan pon cam sakit2 sikit so amik EL la. Actually patut amik MC jer selamat cuti aku, but malas nak kuor. Kalau la ada klinik panel dekat rumah fuhh bestnyer..harus aku MC slalu hehehehehe.

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3. So lepak2 lah kat rumah......tido ber-round2 heaven betuii...bangun buat nasi goreng for lunch hehe lama betui tak masak aku nih. Sangat lama since aku pregnant dulu. Mulanya nak jaga takmo kejer berat2 penat2 sgt sbb ada two history of misscarriage..so tak masak la. Lama2 jadi tabiat laks hehehehe. Masak jugak skali skala buat mostly weken sajer laaa.....tu pon kalau tak kuor. Kalau gi outing, sahih makan kat luar dah. Makin manja lemak berkrim sejak pregnant ni.

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4. Aaaanywayyy, apa lagi nak cerita ceriti yer....hrmm.....ahh skang ni going to the toilet to pee dah jadi satu kewajipan agaknya. Ada la 5, 6 kali wajib bangun mlm gi toilet. Sometimes i wonder where did all the urine come from hahaha sbb mmg full bladder during those 6 or 7 times. Padahal dinner mlm normally mana der minum berliter2 nun kan. Anyway, daytime aku kuat minum. And masa preggie ni, plain cold water is my favorite!! Air berperisa tak berapa sgt like before.

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5.  Check up arghhh...sudahnya byk no tpt nak kena pegi cek up. Memang ler before this ngan klinik gomen tu, tp jap kena refer to hosp ipoh, jap kena ke kkia bota kiri, jap kena ke kk seri iskandar. Leteyyy. Amik darah sokmo gaks due to rendah in Hb. Rendah sikit jer actually tu gynae aku kata ok jer...9.8 tp klinik gomen mmg particular.

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6. Talking about that, i'm supposed to go to kkia bk smlm utk amik darah and re check my Hb after Dr prescribe aku ngan iberet folic nk tengok ada naik dak Hb. hehehehe Tapi aku tak gi pon hehehe..sbb last week dah gi hosp ipoh (which till now i dont know why i was sent or referred there) sbb check dia check biasa jer, all the antenatal check up. So masa tu Hb aku dah naik sikit 10.3. Maleh nak gi lagi smlm. And, tetiba tadi ada call no yg ala2 dari kkbk tu...saspen aku nak angkatnyer hahaha antara nak angkat or bior missed call jer huhuhuu. Angkat jugak la dan redha nak terima bisingan si misi. Tengok2 org lain call, cakap cheque dah siap, nak bagi kat aku. hahahaha duit nak masukkk ropernyer fuhh sib baik pick up. hehehehe

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7. Baby aku ni skang tak baper aktif tendang2 sgt la...dia banyak macam tolak2 perot aku jer menjadikan perot aku sokmo berombak2 kiri kanan kiri kanan hahaha but cute!! I hope ok la. Kadang2 i wonder apa yg dia buat kat dalam tu nyebabkan berombak2 tu. Dia main2 pusing2 ker or dia tolak2 like mengeliat ker..

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8. Semalam masa nak ke dapur from hall and my husband was in my way.....out of the blue aku tetiba jer peluk dia and just hug him close for no reason. Dia laks melayan aku hugged me close too and say i love u.....aint that sweet?? hahaha tu nak kedapur nak siap makan malam tu. Bila terkenang2 macam auwww schweettt jer. Sbb slalunya pepagi time nak gi kejer buat pe'el gitu.

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9.  Aku perati2 dalam sepanjang aku preggie ni.....idaklah byk sangat challenges on pregnancy that i face so far. Kalau ada pon, sumernyer berpunca dari aku sendiri, my eating habit. Like i wrote earlier in my pregnancy, i have problem with my appetite. That's all. Tapiiii....challenges from work was like.......giler terukkk. Entahlah yer... tp aku rasa mmg menguji sgt kesabaran aku, keredhaan aku, ketabahan aku, kekuatan aku...sangat. And thank God, takde lah pulak aku nangis2 emotional macam yg biasa2 kita dengar pregnant women (or kalau tgh peyed) tu kan emosi lebih asik nak nangis jer. Haihh..tp sabo jer lah kan, memikirkan sure ada hikmah on every single thing. Tapi sampai kadang2 aku rasa aku jadik hati kering la..hopefully will recover balik nanti..

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10. Last but not least, finallyyyyy aku dah pack my baby's bag for hospital thanks to Hana for reminding me!! hahaha harapkan aku dok tunda2. Kat opis pon bila terserempak kadang2 depa remind jugak. So, oookayy tokley tangguh2 lagi dah. Aku dah submit borang cuti for maternity. Aku apply starting awal bulan depan....and akan stay kat ipoh umah mak till habis pantang insyaallah. Ingat nak beli broadband la tp coverage tenet very weak and poor kat umah mak aku tu. So..ntah...kang membazir beli jer.

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Wish me luck and doa everything smooth for me yeahh coz i dont know what my bahagian is when it comes to giving birth chapter ni.

8 months into pregnancy

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Dah 8 bulan yeayyyy
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Barang2 sumer dah siap yeayyy
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Tapi borang cuti belum isi, intend to cuti selama 90 hari yeayyyy rehatttt! hehehehe errr kalau lulus la sbb subject to big boss nyer decision gaks. but should be ok i guess. i want to just relax and get busy with baby and not thinking about work work work.
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Blood sugar level seems ok....tp HB reading pulak rendahh cisssss. Hrmm..entahlah maybe pemakanan aku tak betui ni. So weken lepas dah beli segala kerang, hati ayam, bayam segala..need to drink lots and lots of milk... minum jugak tp bila Hb dah rendah ni, kena consume more and more...
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Zahir tak terucap.....

banyak nak citer2 ni...
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tapi tak terluah laks rasanya..coz too much work, too tired, too stressful, too tensed..and mental block.
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hence, zahir tak terucap..
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Terima kasih...

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terima kasih ya Allah...

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Semalam went for my monthly antenatal check up in ipoh. I'm now well 7.5 months into pregnancy. Everything looks good yesterday...gender has been confirmed by the Doc...insyaallah. Other than that, she was a bit concern with my blood sugar level when i reported of my recent reading. Not very good. I shall monitor my food and drinks better from now on.

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The baby's head is already upside down...hopefully he'll stay that way till deliver so that I could go on with normal delivery. Last time, the Doc mentioned that there's possibility for me to undergo caesarian as my pelvic (punggung) is kinda kecik and with my height some more. I was quite surprise last month..i didnt respond to her just look at her looking blank i guess. Of course i want a normal delivery...tgk lah macamana hopefully God permits and dipermudahkan aku bersalin for normal birth. I also heard that sometimes the private hospital prefer c-sect rather than normal. Dunno...just see how and follow the flow. I want to experience normal delivery though.

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Ermm...other than that, stuffs for baby are basically done...except one or two...confinement set i'm gonna get real soon from online. Check out the stockist in ipoh for nona roguy pack and it was like very costly when i've surveyed online, the price could be reduced by 100 rgt!! So nak beli online jer...hopefully ok lah.

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Beli also higoat susu kambing tu...entah..mak kata minum jugak skali skala now utk elak baby kuning......tak boley slalu takot panas...so beli dah smlm..belum minum lagi. Playpen dah beliiiii! i'm so excited! Cute baby blue in color!

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Ok, till then.

Toys bilik air

Aku ada buat listing of menda2 nak kena beli for baby....mostly dah beli alhamdulillah...ada gaks lagi yg belum setel...slow n steady....

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One of the items under category baby bath ni.....aku masukkan la skali bath toys.....terbayang itik la or apa2 la kan....yer la...dok ingat kot2 masa tgh curah2 air mandikan baby tu boley la baby tu sentuh2 tgk2 or main2 toys tu kan..

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Skaliiiii kena gelak ngan amran!! hahaha dia kata apamendaaaa la baby kecik2 baru lahir camtu mana reti lagi pasal bath toys lagi.....ni mommy yg lebey2 jer niiii hehehehe

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So potong dari list lorrrr.

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Takpe, nanti baby dah besar sikit mommy beli kayyyyy...

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Mode H.A.P.P.Y.

Alhamdulillah.

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Memang sunggoh la kegembiraan atau kesedihan itu hak mutlak Tuhan dan Dia boleh bagi bila2 masa jer tanpa apa2 sebab atau dengan sekelip mata segala permasalahan tetiba selesai....

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Alhamdulillah kejer2 pending yg menyesakkan fikiran, menyempitkan usus, melukakan hati...akhirnya selesai...well...idak lah selesai sangat 100% but somehow......i feel a little bit at ease and peace and hence felt a hint of happiness......benda yg berselirat slowly untangle...aku percaya insyaallah Tuhan akan permudahkan kerja2 dan permasalahan aku........

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And i cant thank God enough for granting me the best personal consultant in my life that has helped me going thru all these turbulence....and one that has always believe and have faith in me....alhamdulillah..thank you and love you...

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Apa2 pon holidayyyyyyy dulu.........dan eeeeee syoknyerrr nak shopping barang2 baby!!

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M.O.N.D.A.Y.

...and already exhausted.
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Mengganas

Tahun 2012 ni aku nak mengganas.
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Mengganas apa???.
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Jeng jeng jengggg...
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hehehehe......

Baby updates!!

Semalam gi for my monthly check up at pantai hosp. As usual lepas friday prayer pegi. Tak ramai laks kali ni...ada 3 org jer nunggu...ada masa2nya berderet2. Anyway,...

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Check up was ok. Baby as usual aktif masa doktor nak scan tu! hahaha doktor baru letak jer alat scan tu dah kata, aktifnyer diaaa hehhehehe. And, everything's good smlm alhamdulillah BP, sugar, albumin all good. Baby's growth pon ok.....dah nak dekat 1 kilo (954g) at 25 weeks. Doktor kata just nice saiz and berat dia...and till now, the estimated due date (EDD) remains the same. Kepala baby tu belah bawah masa scan tu....cuma baby tu tutup muka dia ngan tangan dia heheheeh so doktor takley nak buat 4D print out. Last time dia buat. Actually aku tak kisah ngan 4D pic tu...as long as dia ok, everything's ok sempurna cukup sifat dah alhamdulillah...

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Actually smlm pagi aku tension kat opis. Tension sbb sense that ada org nak amik kesempatan on kerja2 aku.hishhh...mmg bad mood and macam takdak mood pon ada. Tapi sib baik masa check up tgk baby ni and perkembangan dia yg ok, sejuukkkkk rasa hati....

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Oklah, will continue later. The upcoming week ni pulak antenatal check up kat kat gomen hosp pulak. Masak ler aku sebulan dua kali kena ngadap doktor. Yg gomen lagi kerap sbb macam2 lagi. Tapi takper, aku redha dan sanggup jer.....cumanyerrrrr next week ni nak kena inject precaution kancing gigi pulak dahhhh huwaaaa

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Haritu dia bermimpi.....

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Semalam ku bermimpi.....

Semalam aku mimpi

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Bukak satu babykingdom shop kat ipoh! hahahaha it was an exclusive outlet bukan rumah kedai jer tau...siap ada section2 macam ala2 mini tesco tu....ada section babies, toddlers, clothing, education, toys, gears, beddings and etc etc hehehehe siap ada pejabat and ada kerani, salesgirl and storeman lagik! siap pasang cctv lagik! hahahah ...hehehehe btw nak tau boss besar saper? amran laa of kos hehehehe sbb aku kejer kan tokley full time kat situ  hehehehe and the best thing in that dream apa tau! punyer ler ramai customerrr dalam kedai aku tu fuhhh hahaha
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Aku rasa ni mesti sbb out of frustration sbb limited sgt choice of items yg ada and also sbb tak byk sgt kedai2 baby kat ipoh ni..
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1.1.2012

Happy New Year!!

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I spent the new year eve and the day itself by going out shopping around ipoh. Looking out for more baby items. Got few more stuff and i guess will give it a break till chinese new year's sale to catch up with the rest.

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What's in store for us in the new year? Nobody knows....
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Lets hope for the brightest future ahead of us and more and more sunshine for us!!
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