16 Ramadhan: bercerita

Harini dah separuh dari bulan posa yg dah kita lalui? so camner so far? hehehe...ermm cepatnyer masa berlalu eks..especially bulan posa ni, day-in day-out..tup tup dah raya jer sok..then the next thing we know, it's boxing day sales dah..opsss..i meant to say, tup tup jer dah ujung tahun gitu hehe...

hrmm..3 suku pertama tahun nih..ermm not so good for me lah i should say.. on almost segala segi rasanya..baik dari segi keje, boss, relationship, financial, health and etc etc...orang kata life ni is full of ups and downs kan..true dan pada aku the first 3 quarters of this year has been more downs than ups so it seem...ada achievement & happy moments jugak of kos along the way, alhamdulillah but not as good and progressive as i had last year. The most disturbing one is my motivation level and enthusiasm concerning work..merudum dan makin merudum ajer...however, worry not guys as from time to time i still try very hard to pull myself together and hold on to the straws of hope and faith that i have left. Anyway, God is fair and life is fair...i had good & promising self-motivation last year, this year God wants me to feel the opposite...it's like, testing me on how strong i am in handling issues and ownself..macam tu laa lebeyy kurang..

Ngan sv pon not that good also since early this year...i dont know what to say..i know i have my own weaknesses and made mistakes but i believe not necessarily sv/boss are right all the time. Though my nature normally accept things, there are times that i showed off my disgust feeling as well hehehe...

Whatever it is, i intend to start writing my thesis beginning of next year..entahlah buleh tercapai ker dak.. but that's the aim. Aim high so i heard? When the writing starts, i have the feeling that i'm gonna be like under the radar in doing so...perhaps spend more time in a cave..perhaps..oh well, u know how unpredictable i am, yes? so see how. I give myself a good 6 months to complete the first draft of my thesis. Probably those who knows the process of writing a thesis would laugh at this thought of mine, but i'd just stay with this idea for the moment. Again, aim high so they say eh? hehehe...yeahh i know how difficult it is to actually keep the idea coming in writing an academic piece, what more with a few-hundreds pages of thesis...phewww...entah aper laks cabarannyer kat depan tu eks..so in the mean time, i'm enjoying my freedom while i can.

Talking about bulan puasa ni kan....the first few days of bulan posa ni kan, entah camana hati aku terbuka untuk menyedari sesuatu...takyah aku citer aper menda nyer...however entah camana..mungkin Tuhan buka kan hati aku utk aku tengok dan nampak...so tetiba jadik insaf and forgiving hence accepting...hope it will last long..

Puasa macam tahun2 yg lepas...hanya weken jer gi berbuka posa kat mesia hall...seperti biasa kat mesia hall weken mmg ada org perseorangan atau organisasi yg sponsor food...so weken lah hari2 yg aku takyah masak for berbuka..jadik, weken jugaklah yg sahur nyer sempoi yg amatz. The gathering masa berbuka posa beramai2 tu syok jadiknyer and meriah coz masa ni jugaklah jumpa kengkawan...catch up stories with real facial expressions hehehe....with fresh gossips shared also muakakaka...last weken ada invitation iftar kat umah yanie..loads of food we have there and insyaallah ada another to go to.

Wokesss..salam nuzul quran pada sumer dgn pertanyaan, 'baper juz dah?' hehehe *ahak ahak ahak pada org yg bertanya nih haha*