Nak bagi tajuk aper nih??

Berapa lama masa yg korang amik utk bangun and motivated utk buat kejer balik lepas sesuatu failure?

Last weekend pegi dinner out ngan somebody atas invitation depa for a very small favor yg amran buat. So masa makan2 tu sembang2 la ngan my fren tu...tanya progress dia this and that. Then aku tanya dia penah tak dalam blajo ni dia frust sangat2 yg mengakibatkan dia down sangat2..Dia kata ada of kos...well aku rasa sumer org penah rasa gitu kan. Aku cuma nak survey tgk baper lama masa yg org lain amik utk bangkit balik. Back to this fren, dia kata seminggu. huhh seminggu huhuu..tu bukan down tuh, tu take a break hehehe tp dia kata mmg down sakan2..nanges2 and all..hrmm...tp lepas tu bangun balik to continue on with life. Penah dengo dak quotes saying something about it's not about success but it's about how you rise up after certain failures that signify u being strong or not...or something like that cant remember.

Actually, sepanjang kat sini aku ada one frustration yg sangat2 that i didnt know it took me so damn long to recover and rise up again. Baper lama? 6 months! hehe..yeap, 6 months to actually be back on my feet and move on. Orang tak pasan pon but i know somebody knows ehekss...actually aku sendiri taktau that i needed that long a time to recover! Result srp, spm tak bagus sgt pon okkayyy jer...result satu semester masa degree yg bawah tahap yg buatkan aku kena tahan biasiswa dan kena ikat perot & kejer part time pon okaayyyy jer lagik...frust cintan pon tak sampai camni...dulu frustrated fine but what da heck, u gotto move on gurl..ihikss.

So back to my current story, dalam jangkamasa frustration tu i didnt do actual work..i play, play and play...and bila aku akhirnya diberi hidayah *ahakss* untuk sedo diri dan bangun dan recover dan move on, it took me less than a month to rectify. Betul sangatlah tu, we are our own enemy. And hikmahnya, kadang perkara2 cam ni buat kita kenal diri kita more than we thought we know ourselves..got what i mean or not? nevermind, at least it is to me...in other words, from time to time we still learn about our own selves.

Sebenarnya come to think of it, it's all in our own definition. Macam my case, probably my weakness or setback is being too rigid stating down of what i want to achieve. And yes, achievement of a person may not be the same as others. Bukan masa zaman skolah2 dulu..kita ada standard point of achievement yg sumer yg nak capai so mmg boleh compare sesangat antara satu sama lain. This case, bila aku dah letak target tu, biarpon rendah..biarpon jauh panggang dari orang lain..tp bila aku tak achieve, to me that's a failure already walaupon pada orang lain tak. Paham dak maksud aku? Tu sebab setengah orang tak suker letak target, tak suker rigid sangat ngan apa yg depa nak capai. Amran for instance, dia mmg takde. Dia mmg biar keadaan be open and flexible so that dia tak kan kecewa sangat bila tak dapat. Bila dapat, mmg rezeki sunggoh. Tu lah bagusnya orang yg boleh think flexibly nih. But then, that's the difference between us both. Opposite attracts people say? ihikss..

Hrmm....tu lah apa2 pon, memang kena mintak hidayah lah sokmo2 semoga bila fail tu, kita boleh nampak opportunity lain and move on. And it's not easy to open eyes to other opportunities tau...so kalau korang ni kategori orang yg mudah nampak other opportunity ni, korang murah rezeki sebenonyer...

Moral of the story? Dont be silly and sulk over what's damaged for too long. Cry yes, by all means cry your heart out then move on. The problem with me is, susah aku nak nanges ihikss.. i mean, i think i cry over personal issues a lot more than i cry over study issues. Hrmm.. apa2 pon, it wont be lama sangat dah till the time i'm gonna finish this study sooooonnnnn!! And boy am i glad that at least i'm at this stage already, alhamdulillah.