Reminiscing

Aku kan..aku notice masa sebelum aku datang sini blajo kan..dedulu aku memang buley multi tasking. I mean workwise, memang buley buat 2,3,4 kejer skali gus at one time. Like mentara buat kejer yg ni, yg tu proceed and the other one tengah in progress. Tapi, as soon as aku land jer kat oz ni dan mulakan jer langkah pertama aku jadik student kat sini...entah camana aku tengok dan merasakan aku tak dapat nak multi tasking kejer. Tetiba sumernyer seolah-olah kena jadik one thing at a time gitu...betui..dunno how and dunno why, but that was the first difference i noticed masa mula2 sampai sini.

So mula2 macam takley nak gi gaks, cam risau gaks..cam..ehh apa kena laks ni kan., sbb aku nih memang jenis orang yg perati signals yg datang kat aku utk aku indicate kan things are gonna be ok or not okay for me in the near future..mmg gitu...and tetiba dah tokley cam dulu...semua kena one thing at a time, and kalau aku cuba nak proceed multi tasking jobs pon..mmg takdirnyer tak dapat..pending lar, and once one pending, the other one could not proceed..things like that la. Risau banget masa tu. Anyway eventually i've learn to accept and learn to do things one thing at one time. Walaubagaimanapon, recently..well not really recent sangat la..maybe setahun lebih kebelakangan ni kot...aku notice aku dah buley pick up dah and be back to my old self..macam buley multi jobs dah. Entah la eks....ker aku jer yg perasan...but one thing for sure, start blajo yg ni aku rasa seolah2 aku start from ground zero. Memang merangkak la nak naik tangga tu...but apa2 pon alhamdulillah atas apa yg aku capai takat nih..though may not be excellent tp i'm thankful enough i experienced and gained them.

Pehtu kan, masa dapat offer letter nak buat study ni dulu...and tengok depa prescribed sesiap ada 6 important courses/subjects nak kena amik kat sini...memang aku berdebar sangat. True, i can still remember my feeling ni once aku dapat tau aku ada 6 subject nak kena amik. Bukan sebab aku takot nak blajar tu, sbb aku rasa aku buley blajo..tp aku macam masa tu rasa, i'm gonna face difficulty blajo 6 courses ni. Menda2 lain aku tak riso pon...and i think true enough, i think setakat 3 tahun kat sini..aku rasa taking those 6 courses tu lah paling susah takat nih hehe well, perhaps because i know what's my biggest weakness kot. Phewwww lega banyak aku lepas sumer course tuh..if i were given a choice eks? i would recommend juniors takyah la enrol research study nih yg ada course hehe..entahlah maybe sbb aku ni kaki lupa kot hehehe pi mai pi mai, by the time aku nak apply menda alah yg aku blajo tu..i can guarantee mmg aku kena bukak buku, nota segala balik haha..silap2 dapat input lebey lagi dari masa blajo kat kelas tu ihiksss...