Academic ramblings...

I bumped into my sv the other day and he posed me one question that adds the nervousness that I am already feeling these few weeks...

"H, have you finished writing?"...he asked

"owh.. in the process.." I answered *LOL*

When I came back to my place, I thought OMG! he didnt even signal me anything concerning writing my proposal and suddenly asked! Well... I am in the writing process anyway as I've mentioned in earlier entries... but what if I have not started? What if, I just sit and read and keep on doing the analysis on those papers and still try to find more gaps that could enrich my work? What if?? Currently, I am doing both at the same time..*that explains the pressure I am at the moment*... writing plus reading plus searching for more theoretical background to support my ideas/proposed model. My present state is kind of like cacing kepanasan....huhuuu nak-nak pulak lepas kena leteaq dek lecturer sorang nun di Sintok nun! hanjjjj okey!! kussss semangat! hahahaha

errr... actually.. that's what I am now...coz my due date is approaching real soon and.. as I read and read and analyze, I got further led into that dark, longggg tunnel and discover more issues, factors and many a time, several different and confusing paths. So somehow, I feel like I kept on going left and right, left and right in terms of what I wanted to add in my initial model...at one time, I feel like.."arghh just make do with what i had already developed and finalize this"... but many times I feel like .."there are more to discover".. hrm.. now I am not sure if I can make it to complete a draft by Merdeka Day.

Anyhow, back to my earlier circumstance with my sv, when I voice out my intention to expand the model, ... basically his response was..

"...put that in writing and show me and then we'll see from there"..

Also... I have started to have dreams *or rather nightmares* about my proposal....many a time, upon celik mata belum bangun dari katil lagi, my brain has started zooming into my proposal already...huwaahhh!! sei lor! wa sudah manyak takot wooo ini macammm *icon ketor-ketor gigi*

The only good thing that make me feel a tiny, weeny bit better this week is that.... my sv also mentioned that J*ohn told P*am, the postgrad director who later informed my sv, that J*ohn is really impressed with my work and believe that I have made such a good progress. J*ohn is a respectable professor who is very well known in Australia as well as in Europe...hikhikhik.. ni jer laa penyedap hati...tapi mimpi tetap mimpi tuhhh!!!

On a lightening note,..here are the only two real birthday cards that I received for this year... not too bad actually coz as compared to last year....I only received a birthday letter from Amran!! kekekeke, who at the time hasn't worked yet.

The purple one, by Delinn while the other one, by DL.

Okay later peeps! Doakan agar idea-idea bernas mengalir dengan lancarnya dalam kepala aku nih yer. Thanks in advance!